R.NYL [:

2008-11-21T14:57:00.004+08:00

Out with family in the morning yesterday. Wokeup at 1030 BIG WOW. Acc grandma & uncle to town. Ate at wisma, then to some electrical company to complain bout the 500+ bills. Afterwards shop! & i think im abnormal out with them. First uncle asked, zara want? No. Bebe want? No. Armani-Exchange want? No. Guess i want, he never ask. Famous Amos cookies want? No. Shoes want? No. Damn! What's wrong with me me me??? Lol! Grandma said it's good to bring me out when i declined all the branded goods! ~.~
Met gf & gi at ps, i reached & waited for 1hour. Shopped myself. Then to buy 450 ticket for Beverly Hills Chihuahua. I give it a 5/5. [: Surprised? I hate dogs, or rather, im afraid. I've always loved golden retriever, after this movie, there's gonna be one more on my list! The police dog! :D It's so cool & not forgetting cute & loyal. How i hope i can have a doglike this when i don't even dare to touch it. HAHA. Okay, shop around again, had been tamed by daiso umbrella for quite some days. Wento take a look at it again. I was clever enough to poke my nails in & a hole appeared! LOL! So didn't brought it home. Bought a light brown gladiator & 2boxer home. Great day i suppose? But someone will know what i mean if i said, it wasn't something great at all at the sarcastic part isn't it? HA! Anyway im late out again, didn't got enough sleep as i woke at 1030, had headache the whole day & today i regained my spirit, lol! Gonna meet julian up at hougang mall, she wants to get her thing while i get my ingrdients for baking things then back to my homey to bake bake [: Anyone wants it? Provided you're not afraid of getting stomachache after consuming it, HAHA. Okay lah, bye liao if not julian gonna shout at me like hell later on!
Anyway, case closed for whatever thing now. I don't wanna waste my energy for that. Useless, no matter how it's talked out we'll find fault at each & every one. If you think you're right so be it. Im wrong, sorry leis.
People! Ngyanlin just had that second of heartache!

Withheld, withheld, withheld! -'-

2008-11-20T02:22:00.002+08:00

BIG SIGH, Late for post again!
Lol, people, see this, im tired! I bold the people up, why? It concern alot of them. Figure it out yourself. Don't ask for troubles when it isn't coming your way at all. Hoping to see my reply at my blog saying all sorts of sweet nothings like don't sad, you think too much? No i won't. You know yourself, why be so kumgong go think so much. If you done nothing wrong worry for fuck. & please, you were the one calling me out not me the one contacting you everytime. So stop your rubbish like we stopped calling you out, bullshit! Don't say im mean. What are girlfriends in your dictionary? Treasure only when boyfriend's away? If you've been bothered by this long ago you would have called us out for maybe a simple outing for movie or lunch. Look who's the one busy now. Jul's working almost everytime, end up did she met us whenever she's got her day off? Sam & mel don't usual hang out with us, but why the sudden we're out again like almost everytime? They know their limits.
Haya nevermind lah, i dowan waste so much effort talking bout this here. As i said, what are girlfriends for? A usual meetups once twice thrice a week is a must-do on the list. Nothing's wrong with anyone here, it's up to you to have it all back like the usual self.
I felt happy for myself that i got myself that "Girlfriends" book, understood alot of things! Won't elaborate, want know lend from me. Assure you, you'll treasure & do your plan for gfs much more better than usual! Felt so much better pouring things out. As i said, it's always good to not know or think too much into a problem. Will only end up in troubles.
Out quite late today, waited 1hour for gf to reach compass then to vivo. Pissed, pissed, pissed! You know who i talking bout lahor. Treat it as i dead to you from now on hor, okay. Compass at 11, out with family. Home at 1230. Bill's gonna burst this month, first time, lol! Sorry for the wordy post, as i've been using lapt secretly nowadays, no time for updates of pictures.. Okay, goodbye/goodnight. [:
Should be out with Leroy tomorrow, hope so. Missing him out of a sudden? Lol!

2008-11-19T01:53:00.003+08:00

Note: Late post.

1. Plaza Sing
2. Lunch/Dinner
3. Shopped
4. Hougang
5. Compass
6. Void deck
7. Home by 1130

Shermie: Lol, sure when chance comes! [:
Mag: Yup! Of course! Link you up soon! [:
Adelaide: Okay sure [:
Kiki: No problem [:
Julian: HAHA be jealous! Lol, sure sure, the next time to sentosa :D
Lynn: It'll be great if you could tell me who you are, or rather do i know you? Thanks [:
Shiyu: YOYO! Lol.

2008-11-17T23:25:00.011+08:00

Note: You might not be able to take it for the pictures below. So just skip it for goodness sake [:

Food by clarence, love it [:

Cashier's not even opened yet, lol.

Yup, surprisingly i didn't sleep for the night before sentosa, was drawing the whole night away. Bathed at 615 then went over to gf's house at 7, waited for her to get ready then compass met mel, mrt to vivo waited for sam. Sky train to sentosa at bout 11? Had fun there, applied sun-block lotion, lol! Lots of photos taken of course, but for time being only have this few with me. Fuck it, i swear im gonna cut away my 8kgs soon! ): Bathed then to vivo for shopping. I swear i was damn tired shopping there.. Maybe lack of sleep? Mrt-ed back to sk, 156 to clarence house with mel & gf. Mahjong-ed, ate what clarence cooked for us, it's nice & thanks for your effort. [: Gf didn't eat as she've to go home earlier. Home at bout 10 with mel. Tiring yet fun day. Someone called to inturrupt when im at sentosa, well surprisingly i was not as pissed as days ago instead i felt happy. Slap myself for this. Gfs told me off, especially sam, i didn't know she can get so pissed by how he treated me or rather is treating me now. She had some nasty comments for his girl too ~.~ lol. I swear i'll love my girlfriends, treasure them from now on. I didn't know how much sam actually cared for me until now, after 4years of friendship with her. Though she don't do right thing, but she treat her girlfriends good. The best thing was when she said "还是跟你们最开心" Thanks sam. I hope things goes well for you right now, & hope you would listen to us whenever we open our mouth okay? {:
Today, slept at 10 yesterday night, not surprised, i didn't sleep for 2days. Woke at 12, compass called to go over for work, agreed without hesitating, cause nothing & no plans for today. So started at 2 ended at 9. I seemed happy working there cause i've no needs for long bus rides after work. Met jul & yahhui after work, ate then outside talk talk home at 11++. Messaged Rhys, seems like he's doing fine? Hope to see them on christmas. Bought 2books at workplace today, mommy agreed to pay for it. One of it "Cut" another one "Girlfriends are for life"? If i not wrong, lazy go check. Oh & many more things, one small book, "I MISS YOU so much", 2 kimidolls keychain, one "romance" one "wealth", one mini calander for 2009, one key pouch. That's all, lol. No, & a christmas greeting card of forever friends bear which cost a bomb. For Rhys's mom, decide to send it to her house so asked Rhys for full address.
Okay, not gonna say more. Byebye.

Doreen: Thanks! :D
Shiyu: Lol, can't blame, i didn't know bout it all the while, haha!
Anna: No prob, soon [:
Sharon: When you're free of course! Miss & love you too! :D
Eugena: Depends :p

2008-11-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

Day out to Ehub.
Something i drew when i can't fall asleep.

Day out to raffles/suntec.

15th Nov
Late for post again. ~.~ haha.
Okay, wanted to go for steam bathe, damnit! Can only go to bed at 6. Woke at 2, prepared met cheeyen & gf. 88 to j8, passed joan ic paper & filled form. Walked around, got myself a bottom, dress & purple/light blue fbt [: Then to amk ate, shopped, 88 to gf's cousin house. Everybody kept praising me & cheeyen got so agitated, hahaha. Then to hougang point, 159 compass. Saw police screening a group of people in mall, or rather checking some stuffs? Walked to nowhere & sat down, played with tama, cam-whore, chat, home by 1230. BB uh, don't cry anymore okay, what i've to said have alrdy told you in person, it's up to you to listen or not. Just take care of yourself & give us a call if you need us alright.
Got the chance to post again, asked for 2hours here. & am so happy bout tomorrow. Meeting mel at 820 at sk & sam at 9 at vivo. Going to sentosa, gfs day out [: Then night dinner at clarence's house bah, he'll be cooking cause going oversea soon. Will be going over after sentosa trip with mel, sam & gf. Sadly, julian can't go. She've to work, lol. The others working also i guess.
Oh, & yah, i always feel so happy with example cheeyen sarah natalie & so on. I don't have to watch my words when talking to them. I trust them they won't spit it out! That's why me cheeyen & gf can talk bout somebody till so happy today, hahaha. Hope jaslyn & cheeyen can get back tgt again too. & found one more job, working 22nd, 28th, 29th at expo, selling phones bah. Well, more cash who dowan? Lol. Ah, gotta go off veh soon, surprisingly i've only used the lapt for 40mins & im sick of it. Better go to bed early if not gf gonna nag & nag again tomorrow, haha. But anyway im gonna watch my show from 130 till 3, LOL! Rest assured i'll force myself to wakeup tomorrow, lmao. Goodbye/Goodnight.

/ Love at first sight.

2008-11-14T04:34:00.006+08:00

13th November
Out at 2, met chinkiat, maoqin & julian at vari nice, waited for zion then 89 to Ehub. Williams & gi came, caught 430 Quantum Of Solace. A nice show, 4/5. Those sound effect makes one excited. Finished around 6, pool-ed there. Lost & won. Samantha came so mrt-ed with her to airport to send Ngo, Kong, & Edgar off. Thanks mel for drink [: Weiliang joined later. Alot of people were there, real envy. Cried when i hugged Ngo. & i cursed, Ong will die sooner or later. He'll regret not letting us off to Sydney! Kong said cause he assumed that we won't be promoted. Eh siaoeh, -'- Fuck off! If we got good results for sec5, later he want por us we also dowan care. They will be back only next friday, we could have all gone with them yesterday, it's all because of that mother fucker. Im real pissed! 27 to compass, cab to elsie's house. Home at 12.
14th November
Out at 4, plaza then to gf house wait for her. Mrt-ed to Raffles, reached at 6. Just nice jul knock off. Walked over to penisula looked for weian, nelly, & zhongsheng. Met xinyi then 4 of us walked over to suntec while i don't know where weian went. Walked the whole day. Wento 6th floor, conventional hall looked for maoqin, zion, eugene. Saw leroy there. Went over to suntec city shopping mall, mac cafe again. Water fountain's nice. Shopped. Back to look for mao & eugene at 10. Mrt-ed home tgt. Home bout 12. Quite a number of pictures to be uploaded. Will upload it when free, no time to have it here now as im using the lapt secretly without grandma knowing. Have been staying up late for maths revision & drawings/sketching. Will be going to darling's condo for gym & sauna in the morning at 8 sharp. Then maybe home & out at later time to j8 to pass supervisor photocopy of IC & contact number. Then joining Cheeyen bb whole day? She sounded real upset, i shall accompany her for tomorrow [: Sunday will be out early again! For sentosa with gf & sam only! Haha, happy happy. Surprisingly, this is the first time i agreed to my gfs sentosa trip, i've never ever agreed to it. & i fking promised myself to apply sun-block. I won't get myself tanned, lol. I stiu prefer being fair though exes prefer tan. ~.~

Oh & yah, i shall answer you here. I won't have any bf or look for any bf for the time being. I've just learnt that it's a waste of time maybe? Why be so dumb to get myself hurt when i can live happily as ever? Bf do play a big role or mean big to me, but nah. Why not study first? &&&, im not going for ITE dumbo! You'd better not too.. It's stiu your decision at the end of the day.
Though i know it doesn't help with me treating you that way. Then why not help me? Stop treating me, good, veh good, best?

It's late, i shall continue with my drawings & scv shows then Zzz. With Love, Goodbye/Goodnight.

2008-11-12T23:43:00.008+08:00

Overdue Pictures

Pictures for today

Alright, i know i look sooooo fat in that picture! God. & that's what i got for myself today, isit nice? [: Love the colouful stripes. Bugis with sam & gf. Walked around, sam got the interview date wrong -.- Dinner at bugis junction then to raffles look for julian, on the way there an auntie was about to fall in the train as it's too crowded, im so kind enough to ask her to hold onto me, haha. Reached, & julian looked like an auntie in her uniform, hahaha! She got to know a new malay girl which don't look like 18 at all, that's cool. She went back to work, sam disiao-ed her, lol. Then off to ps bout 6. Shopped again, lots of clothings from Cotton on bought. & finally i got my Dorothy Perkins Red top!! :D &&& my X1 broschure is out today! Haha, double happiness aye. Got my thights too! Got everything in one day, finally a fitting box for 80 colourpencils! Hahaha, alot alot, serious lot. Anyway, im so sad now. Lapt's gonna be gone from tomorrow onwards. This will be the last day having me here using it. This explains why so many photos posted/edited. Gonna plead mommy get the iTwo plan, then i'll get my phone at a profit of only $468. The actual price for the phone without plans is $1482. Get this clear! It's in thousands. So isn't it a profit to buy it with iTwo plan??? [: Lol. This Nov gonna be mommy's bomb month. Should i help to pay with my pays? Do i work to pamper myself, with just a phone (????)
Shouldn't say much for now. What i think is, after this post. I won't have much opportunity to blog/post/surf the net anymore. Goodbye/Goodnight. Don't miss me, please tag as usual. ^^
Okay as the vice-chairman for this year. Im gonna plan a one day bbq at east coast for 4b with the chairman Waichun! Oh & take a look at his blog, he designed his own plain t-shirt, it's real cool, all in amaths! & hope this plan goes well. The first time im doing my part playing an important role, haha!

That explained why the sudden stop, bastard.

2008-11-11T23:24:00.005+08:00

Sunday
Went out to trim eye brow again with gf. Then to clarence house, i didn't overcome it downstairs, but was fine after awhile at his house. Dined at Hougang green. Home bout 11.

Monday
Woke at bout 2. Met sam, mel, sharon at bugis. Shopped alot of things. Happy happy, got my pants & shoes for work. Shopped for quite some time, parkway at night. 43 & 80 home with sharon. Plaza bought sweets sat down acc sharon wait for her friends. Home bout 1130. Photos taken, upload when free. Finally a so-called one full day out with sister E. Don't have to feel bad i guess? You made that effort to send me that message, this had alrdy showed how much you really care. But yah, sometimes, maybe really just adjust your time well? We could hardly see you now. Don't worry, i'll stiu love you as before [: Not forgetting this, please don't give up the thought of going to sec5, i plead, please. Since you know you have the possibility of promoting why not just carry on working hard for one more year, it'll be all worth the while, trust me. Ring me up when you're free, i promise too i'll be there.

Tuesday, Today.
Woke at 12, bathe then was sent by uncle to mommy's place nearby with sister for facial. Fuck! I swear i won't go for those that help you to pinch out those acne kind or pimple kind of thing again! Damn painful, can take half of my life again. Imagine how painful it can be when i almost screamed & kicked their wall, lol! But of course my face turned out so nice & white lah. If need go for washing again i sure wash! :D Good treatment, they know me & sister going out after that mommy stiu asked them to apply sun-block for us, haha. Then 107 at 4pm to hougang. Walked around with sister, then to compass. Wanted to have pizza to enjoy with her, budden.. Closed down for renovations, nbu. Then had kfc as sister suggested loh. I damn dumb, didn't know i didn't get student meal until sister told me. Then weiliang came & went off at bout 9? Me & sister 119 home, then out again to plaza, she bought pants, home again. Then out to punggol park for run. Ran for 2km i guess? Back home at 1030. Bathe then asked grandma for permission for lapt, she agreed. 2hours loh. No choice, i chose to be a good girl now as the bills exceeded 500. Gosh, that's way too much! Great-grandma's house living room got air-con somemore only 100+. & yes! Jul got her off-day on the 7th! Happy [: & so sad, compass called today to asked if im free to attend job there, but i wasn't free, damnit! Don't know when's the next time they will call. Okay, shouldn't say more uh. Thanks weiliang for the post. Fyi, he snapped my photo from msn! Steal i mean? Lol, okokay, byebye. ^^

Why did you called, again.

Be satisfied with who you're with.

Weiliang: Lol, now you know the reason. Nevermind, wait for your message every 3 midnight, lol!
Yihui: Erm, if i not wrong, hoju? It's started with a H infront bah. [:
Elmond: Thanks, okay link soon [:
Xinyi: Ha -.- Then yours can't? Zz, then who stay with me sia. I staying 7th only leis, 8th my mom got bbq with family.

2008-11-11T03:08:00.000+08:00

Ok I shall begin my post with a good and lively one.
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Alright start my post, asked Rowena to online.

But she can't as her ah ma don't allow her to use due to the rose of the electrical bill.

So she asked me to help her blog, so I agreed if not I won't be blogging here. -.-

I just said something stupid, so I assume she won't update her blog?

Or maybe I will help her to update?

Tomorrow she is going out back to somewhere or rather back to her mother's house with her sis.

Shall be meeting them then go Vivo bah.

ok should be quite long already.LOL!

Weiliang,writting on behalf of

Rowena

2008-11-09T14:05:00.012+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WILLIAMS! :D

Well, im back.. Went for work yesterday, wasn't late. Reached mall at nearly 1. Started working then. There's 2 supervisor there, one bigger status, karen. One my supervisor, joanne. & one more guy, jason korkor. I seriously love, karen! & i seriously hate, joanne! Damn, when im informed im under joanne my heart goes duh.. Karen then showed me all the stocks & everything. My facial expression damn funny, cause i've been smiling for 8hours. Karen then told me, if you have any enquiries can ask me or joanne. If you wanna go out for a drink/toilet/smoke, just inform me too. She just said it out. Lol, went out at 3 for drink, 530 for break which i didn't eat at all, walked around mall got myself a Tamagotchi newest version. Went back 30mins later, went out again at 830 told her for a smoke, cause weiliang arrived. Told you, karen's nice [: So so so many customers today! Damn! Don't know what they came for. But i met 2 rich one, haha! Bought alot figurines, one can cost not less than 100. Served alot of customers today, got 2paikia damn funny lah please. Came in want look for presents, i stared at them, then walked forward. Asking whether it's for girls. Then he saw a mirror plated with bear, it's in form of glass with words on it, costing him $8.90. Then i intro-ed him a precious moment girl sitting on a cupcake, costing $12.90. Told him girls would prefer this more, lol. Then he took both. The friendly one is handsome. The dao one, not handsome at all. & one indian teenage is real friendly, then i treated her better, lol. Got a chinese school girl, i saw her then scan her, wha damn xiasuay lah, she saw what i did. Nbu, then of course she gave attitude, i don't care anyway. Too much to say working there lah. Next schedule up on 27th Nov. Then atrium liao, from 15th to 28th dec. Hopefully im incharged of cashier :D So that ill have a chair & meantime play. HAHA. Helped zhongsheng got the job too, he'll be going for training later than mine. My legs are all worn out. Bought a big notebook there as im a staff, got discount. Bought it for sec5 notes, so early uh. Dismissed & i jumped! Real happy, checked bag then off i go. Yah, & brought williams a small mousey there which cost me $7.90 for his bday. 88 to punggol park, reached at 1030. Met alot of them, will upload pictures when im back. Celebrated his bday with mango cake, alot of fun lah, lol. Me, williams & gi came from work. Damn, williams can wear till so handsome for work, this is so unfair, keke. Then to vari nice at bout 1, drank then home at 120. Played with Tama then slept at 155, real tired.
Most probably going to clarence's house for mahjong. You see, finally im going over after so much incidents that have happened. Today will be a hard day for me, but bear with it! I know i can overcome it! Bye, off to cook maggie for myself, poorthing. Haha, byebye ^^

This proved that i can live without you, & you.

Elsie: Yes yes, remember it okay! Yup, call me up if you guys are free, i shouldn't be busy too, haha, love you too! :D
Julian: Stop living in your world of illusions with self-deception. ^^
G: Hey thanks! Lol. [:
Sam: Okokay lah. Don't know want watch not then my problem uh. Lol

2008-11-07T23:25:00.005+08:00

♥ Rose

High fever yesterday night, pop panadols down again. Woke up at 11 today, prepared then to compass. Out with gi, jul, xinyi, clarence, kuanyew, kenneth, tsekang, chunkien, xinzhi, zhiting, jieyi & alyssa. Pool & lunch at paradise, 420 movie at ps. We caught the Rec. I swear this is the first movie that scare me out of my wits! The only part that scare me & caused me to shout was when the fat old lady ran out of nowhere & started screaming at the fireman! -.- Okay lah, i rate it 4/5. After movie, shopped around at ps & found out Dorothy Perkins outlet became smaller. Then wento alot shop selling cute things. Found that shop that brought back fhell memories. However, kuanyew bought me a rose keychain there [: Julian can't get it, stop telling people he wanted to buy it for you when you never even told them the last sentence that he said, lol! Wento chomp chomp for dinner with gi clarence & jul. Ate & 136 back to sk, felt like vomiting so much so much, damn. Met chinkiat & zion. Walked home alone at 10. Good girl, got work tomorrow mah, lol. So sad, gonna wake up at 11 again. Any kind soul to acc me through my bus journey??? :D HAHA. Okay lah, dowan say much, couldn't upload photos, cable not here. Bubbye & goodnight ^^

I've never ever been told, im this kind of person. This marked the end of everything.
Let's not see each other again. Promise me, never again, okay?

Weiliang: A few? -.-
Esther: Done [:
Xinyi: Lol, you don't lame. This song is i got it when i wento precious thots with gi & sam leis. Mine stiu nicer, lol!
Julian: Lol, everytime say people dreaming, you yourself don't know your dream the worst. Yan cheng xu sia. At least mine in singapore, good at studies what also can do, yours only know how to act. You can try go be actress also, and no! Btw, not yours. LOL!

2008-11-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

♥ Pictures Of You

Went out at 1 yesterday night with grandma & co, they went for supper then to geylang looked for daddy. He got me a lv wallet & gave 50bucks. He changed, not better. But stiu doing those illegal stuffs there. I swear i hate prostitutes! One of the girl was jealous when daddy told her im his gf. Then she looked so jealous and said not bad quite pretty. She was one of daddy's admirer, then daddy told her im actually his daughter lah. Whether he can be with daddy not have to be approved by ahma & me her 千金小姐. Then daddy asked so what do i think? I just gave that bitch a stare & continue browsing daddy's lv book. Anyway, daddy's working over there with his group of friends. He's gonna have his own flat soon, the keys are alrdy with me. Headed home at 3 yesterday. Weiliang's damn unlucky. When i sleep late he don't usually message, when i don't sleep late, he'll keep on messaging, lol! Received his prank/morning call with messages at 5.
Today, woke up at bout 2, bathe then to plaza bought my things & food then headed to xinyi's house. Edited my photos, &&&&&& my iPod is alive!!! So happy, so many songs inside, so many songs i want are all inside, from now on i can blast with all my favourite songs in my ear! :D Thanks to xinyi's itunes programme, i went over just for the sake of my iPod. Wento RM with xinyi at 730 to look for gf & chinkiat for dinner. Home at 10.
Im super happy, kuanyew agreed for movie tomorrow! I've been waiting for so long uh. Gonna work on sat at j8 ): That's fast. Just hope aunt will make the effort to send me there, haha! Bubbye, off to tv ^^

Weiliang: Lol, you know that is you don't know how to appreciate jiu hao! Anyway at the beginning when you guessed also got guess wrong lor, lol.
Natalie: Lol, good good. [:
Julian: Lol, shut up lah sister B! You liddat call clever liao? Then what am i? HAHA. & it's 930, not 1130 lah. Going down to your there from j8.
Xinyi: Lol, she think that she knows every letter clever liao! Yup, better in time [:
Shiyu: Lol, how am i suppose to say it out here? HAHA
Sweeling: Yup, welcome [:
Dexter: Haha, sure, welcome lah! ^^
Julian: Got sister K alot lah. Not throw myself at him leis, he accepted me so long ago. We keep low profile, lol!
Xinyi: Lol, no use. Alrdy posted it up, don't know who that time posted my jiaobin taken at chomp chomp also! HAHAHA
Julian: Delete yours? The more i won't! You saw that one me & kuanyew with your face behind? Totally spoilt. It could be perfect without your face, lol!

2008-11-05T23:38:00.012+08:00

♥ Cyclone

Julian, my ex leis, so handsome right, don't jealous lah.. HAHAHAHA! ^^

Julian, my current one, don't everytime touch here & there leis! HAHA! :D

Yeah, finished 黑糖玛奇朵 liao. :D A quote learnt while watching was, 爱不是说努力就能够争取的，然而是要对彼此有感觉. True, i've been wrong bout this all the while, nevermind. Something learnt anyway [:
Chatted & webcam-ed with kok weiliang in the middle of the night. Delayed my show time a lil lah, lol. But not a bad chat. Sure feeling so much better. Somehow no matter what the tranparent paper feeling won't fade so easily. Thanks for the care & concern also, i know what im doing. The third time & i've to pack my stuffs to girls home, im aware of the consequences & from now on i promise to start watching myself & washing my hands out of this!
Woke at 1120 by zs's call. Bus to school met weian. Fion saw me, don't call me chao ahlian, i not chao ahlian! ): Walked to compass, saw eve, been some time! I really do miss her! Although we may not talk as much as last time, but i'll never forget her. She was once someone whom i shared my joy & laughter with. Wento watson weian looked at his dyes. Cab to weian's house. Helped him & zs dyed their hair, somehow so disappointed in Gatsby! Even bleaching it appear to have no effects at all. Then to ave8 brought kuanyew to jj for haircut. Didn't join weian & co for movie. 88 back to sk, met jul & xinyi. Kuanyew went home to change then join us :D 88 to amk hub. Crap alot in bus, felt so sorry after hearing something, she can talk to me, but i can't do anything, sigh. Nevermind bout that, see how it goes. Don't be sad, please cheerup! Smile always, that's what you told me [: Walked around & i didn't know that the girls actually meant window shopping!!! -.- Anyway kept myself happy today with ice-cream & frappe lahhhh, stiu not too bad.. I know, kuanyew damn shy today but nevermind lah, just get use to it, hahaha. Cannot believe he can actually do funny faces when we take photos, lol. & damn xinyi, told us correct correct we take correct side for 86 back to sk. Then ended up in amk hub inter, nbu sia. Then wento take 86, again. Then brought back memories lah, not good. If can choose rather don't go there, lol. 188 met chinkiat & co. Finally so Eugene uh, & surprisingly, he lasted with his gf that i saw when i wento his house for his bday celebration, 8th month liao leis, envy can. Then told him bout mine loh since he also saw before. This is life lah, hor? Lol. Home at 11. Don't know who lor today, heard Rowena's name. Then okay byebye. Though it didn't trigger my nerves at all, but.. SIGH, lol. Alright, bubbye. Off to look for some entertainments.

2008-11-04T23:52:00.010+08:00

♥ Caution!

Im not late for post today [: Sorry, no post for yesterday, spent my night over at gf's house. Been some time since i last slept with her. Sounds weird, lol. Recently don't have the habit of sleeping at home. Did i use the right word, "habit". Or rather, i don't feel like going home, facing grandma. Wouldn't bother to say what happened, wait & see. Im gonna be 18 soon, in only not more than 2years time!
Yesterday woke up at 11+ nothing to do so went back to sleep. 3+ woke again, bathe then actually wanted to make the trip to ps alone to look for family, keep changing clothes don't know whato wear so gave up the thought. Met up with gf & Leroy instead. They had their dinner then we headed to plaza to look for jul and xinyi. Sat down talk talk. All bout work work & stiu work. Jul was cursing Robinson then they called to inform her bout her working dates, so well she got herself a job! Lol. I was stiu complaining hard, i went for so many interviews, filled up so many forms stiu not one job found, damn pissed. Wanted to give up the thought alrdy. Then gf asked me to acc her to j8 for her phone collection, so yup. Slept over at her place then morning woke up went home to bathe, prepare then out again.
Today, met gi & gf at bus stop. 88 to j8 for her phone. Something bad happened ): Nevermind, thanks god. Im fine [: Saw precious thots which gi got her job at vivo while for me non. So went in, asked. I've got a job! Training this saturday at 1pm. Ends at 930, not going home after that. Meeting liams & co, it's his bday. Thank god i stiu remember! Okay, the attire stiu okay lah, black bottom, white polo, covered shoes. Not bad. & the break is only 30mins, i think i won't go for it, instead you guys know what i'll do during that 30mins lahor, lol! Grandma asked me to leave house at 1145 this sat, exaggerating, ha! Then shop around, 88 to amk hub. I found out something new bout myself, i've began to face things up. Those places which i detest to go, or have been avoding, im not afraid of it anymore. There's one more place left for me to overcome, which i don't know when then i'll have the courage to give there a visit. Eww, drop this. Ohya, he hasn't been calling anymore. Good/Bad? I myself don't even know i feel better or worse. What's best is i didn't go think bout it. When i think bout it, it's like death. ~.~
Okay whatever, gonna accompany kuanyew to jj for haircut tomorrow, meeting him at 3. HAHA, he finally sort out his thoughts to have a paikia haircut, cool! He's my guy don't even have the thought of touching, HAHAHA!
& i just remembered what that someone said, "you've got the determination to do something. Last time i see you sec1 & 2, like undertaker! Now changed alot.." Lol, thanks. But don't have to exaggerate the whole thing, undertaker sia -.-
Aye, i remembered i've some task to do here.. Sorry for this long post [: Here i goes..
I shall name these sisters A, B, C, D, E & F.

A: Serious close friendship with her. I wouldn't badmouth her for no reasons. & i swear even if this world turns i won't forget her. She'll be there for me almost everytime, while i don't think im the first for her to approach when she's down. It doesn't matter, we know our relationship will never change [:
B: Ahha, she's the first person whom i gave my trust to! She's great at times, but sometimes uh, her attitude serious suck! She knows that too, haha! When she's around i never fail to laugh my ass out, though she's not good at words when im sad, but i stiu choose to call her when im dying, lol. She likes to give stupid faces while taking photos, this should give you the answer who she is. Well, i treasure the friendship between me & her too. Don't believe can ask kenny, i keep on telling him i miss her finally tomorrow her o's finished i can ask her out alrdy! HAHA.
C: She was someone i once trusted so much too, though no more now. But don't be sad. I feel that to understand a person it really isn't easy. So it takes time for me to be as good friend with you as before. We once had this conflict, you apologised, i accepted. This friendship goes on. I forgave you not because im biased, cause someone's been helping you telling me it's not worth to let this friendship go like this. Anyway, just to let you know, don't be suspicious of me from now on too, i'll treat you as a true friend, as i said, it takes time. [:
D: I do detest her. But i don't seem to have the courage of telling her. She once asked, usually people whom know me will know, i'll say it out straight, but to her. It was exam period so i didn't spit it out to. She made me so pissed recently, i told gf too, if im daring enough, i'll just send her a bitching message straight infront of her face. She's got a bf, but?! She seem to don't understand at all. With or without a bf, it doesn't make a difference. She once told me im her best pal, but time shows everything out. Maybe her true colours too? She used to say something that hurt me infront of my face, if she's really true to you, & you're someone important to her, will she even said that kind of thing? Maybe she didn't notice it, why? Cause she thinks that she's perfect. What's more, she don't learn her lesson. I've hinted her umpteen times too, she just never get it! Stop approaching my friends, total ****! Don't make me call you that because you're my girlfriend!
E: Speechless. I don't mean to say this. But is bf & work much more important than us? She've never considered bout our feelings at all. & it's so difficult to even ask her out for a proper one day. I told them before, one day this gonna fall apart, they keep saying won't, end up? You think party you come & go as you like? She don't even bother to call us up but with us everytime calling her asking her out. It seem more like we're booking appointment with her, she's soooo busy aye? She don't/won't know how we felt, does she even bother to go & find out bout all these stuffs? She's totally like someone different now, one day when we met on streets, she may even take us as strangers!
F: Also another bf girl. Now broke up alrdy guess she'll be even busier aye? Going out late at night, rounding or for drinks. Everytime we gave advices i wonder she heed it or not. At least she once made her promise & met us out, it's real one day, this is what im glad for. We've to pray for her like as if we'll only see her a year later. I don't understand what she wants also, her parents worked so hard for her studies end up what shit she gave them? Talked to her umpteen times, she wouldn't listen to us at all. Is being feminine & a proper girl without spending night outside or at guy's place that difficult? Girl wakeup lah please. We cared, so we said. If we doesn't care anymore, that's when you come crying to us. Treasure what's before you, before you really lose them.

End of it. Felt so much better. If you wanna know who isit, ask me. Don't assume you know every single thing after reading my post. Don't feel bad, i felt bad too when i wrote this, but stiu i've to pour my feelings out, this is the only way which you all could see it too. I hope you read it, try to understand what im trying to say. Give me a call, we'll stiu turn out as fine i promise.
Alright, off to my 黑糖玛奇朵. Bubbye! [:

Ken: Lol, i know i know. Anyway, this price ex leis, lol!
LG Secret: Oh really? Alright, thanks anyway [:
Natalie: Lol, i knew he'll pua alot stunts when he started the chat. HAHA, goodluck for your remaining papers! :D
Shiyu: Lol, she'll never go naked unless she's desperate! Yup, that's me when im stiu a toddler [: Haha, cbox not only look nicer, it's easier for people to tag also.
Weiliang: It'll take a long time bah...
Elsie: Really uh? Whalau, i want see wangzi leis! His real person shuai not? HAHA. Scared i see them i tremble like hell when gonna shake their hands. They gonna laugh to hell when they come to think bout it! I wanna see them lahhhhhh! ): lol!

2008-11-02T22:58:00.007+08:00

♥ Unfabulous

Im back! Wento compass for dinner yesterday. Talked it out with girl, i know i've attitude at them, but well everything stiu turned out fine. Keep your promise & i'll be glad.
Met someone at night for bout 3hours + ? Happy. Went over to compass took 163 at 10pm to mommy's place. After much consideration, decided to stay over at her place. Cause im mad at grandma? I don't know, it seems to be such a good place for me to think through some stuffs. Slept at 1+ there, woke up at 9 in the morning, good/healthy routine aye, haha. But while watching cartoon network fall asleep on the sofa, woke up 4+ raining cats & dogs. Not long after grandma called, initially wanted to help grandpa over at the place we goind to dine at. But end up wento compass, julian house then met someone again. So gave grandma a call & told her not going over. Home at 10. Found out something ridiculous..
Am i a toy? Or im a toy? HA. Drop your act & stop trying to be someone kind enough to help him get me. This won't work. Who do you think you are? You didn't know how i felt when you're on the phone! _l_

6,
i wouldn't regret missing your call,
like a fool again.
I missed it.

Secret Black Label Series LG

Sony Ericsson X1

Which one should i get? Uncle suggested Sony Ericsson X1, while the one i like is LG Secret Black Series. How? Any suggestion please? [:

Natalie: Lol! Yah real shocked when he talked to me. Tell you what he said when we meets, even more shocking, HAHA!
Weiliang: Lol, hard to understand uh. We stiu know each other not long enough, to really understand a person isn't that easy, lol!
Julian: HAHA! You saw this with your own eyes, hehehe! :D
Shiyu: Lol, recently nothing good bout her to post. Everyday jiaobin pple see liao also will bored, lol!
Elsie: Xiaoyu is the play music in the show one isit? Guitar if i not wrong, haha that one not bad also! But Ao Quan also not bad, his actions all so jiao & cute! :D Shake hands with wang zi?! Damn! He's real shuai lah! But i know his hobby's act cool, lol!
Ken: HAHA! Must have missed me too right! Don't lie! ^^ Lol, yalah. I've 18more days to decide. Think it through first. But initially i've always wanted the LG one. Now this one pop up, don't know which one to choose. The SE one looks cool. But both also got touch screen lah. Ahhh, which one?! HAHA.

2008-11-01T00:13:00.012+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY T.KENT! :D

I read through some stuffs. It wasn't even enough to fill up a simple book. It ended on the 9th page. Ngyanlin's pathetic enough isn't it? For correct/exact counting. It's now, 23more days to the 8th month. Laugh, laugh at me all you want. Call me the dumbfolded.

Late for post again. Out at bout 5 to zion house, met gi & jul. 119 to Hougang plaza pool. Left there around 8? To compass for dinner at subway. Jiyou & weiliang joined us too. Wento look for gf, then walked around compass follow by sculpture park for swings. Slacked, then to prime mart. Came out saw williams, wento somewhere sat down & chat. Williams seemed real bored, he play with my chocolate egg's toy, lol! Home at 1145. Headache the whole day, just popped 2panadols down my throat. Something seems to be spinning stiu in my head..
Ive got a job! Starting at 7th of Nov. Should be ending at end of Dec, but i bullshit to that manager that i've got to start my revisions for sec5 when Dec starts, lol! But the main reason is i've to attend chalet on 7, 8, 9th. 16, 17, or 18th for Nlvls result. & usual christmas celebration every year at Noreen/Amy ahyi's house. Yeah, & this is when i got to see Rhys & co! :D Of course not forgetting the presents game, hahaha! Oh, this is so shitty, unknowingly, freddie's talking to me in msn x.x Out of a sudden... Why? Lol.
But anyway, i miss kenny aye? He's so busy at camp i guess? Alright, post more again when i feel better, goodbye/goodnight. [:
Not forgetting, i wanna catch this show soon. Nights in Rodanthe. Real soon! Subordinate, spare me this time please? Lol, crap.
Im talking to shijun laopa too, don't worry, i miss you so much too! Let's meet up when you have the day off okay! Lovelove for you :D

* Subordinate, you're really getting me on my nerves!

Quack: I would like to work too, until i found a suitable one loh, lol. Okay you let me know again bah. Haha, yah. Got it from Chinatown, but i prefer the GoldCasio one i saw somewhere leis. Like nicer.. Why? Lol!
Shiyu: Definitely, no one will be able to win her over this, HAHA!
Julian: I now chatting with him so happily. He told me you forced him, sigh. He so sad, cause i found out. Don't harass him again. He say you keep trying to flirt him but failed. Okokay, i uds i really uds. You see, everyone say bout jiaobin sure know is you, HAHA!
Elsie: Haha, welcome lah! Sure? Scared the shoulder there too large.. HAHA, yes i'll take Ao Quan no matter what. Julian want Wang Zi then i give her a chance lor! :D
G: Lol, quite true [:
Seah kuanyew: I know liao, nonid say. Julian saw? He said you forced him! HAHAHA :D

Shijunlaopa: Haha, yup! Been some time since i last saw you oh! Sure when you've off days lah. Sadly, only black hair's allow for the job ): Haha, miss you too lah okay! :D & hor, you better don't make yourself suffer okay! Don't scare me with surprises also, & not forgetting, don't make me worry uh! Must live life to the fullest understand?! Love you & takecare of yourself! [:
Weiliang: Lol, not bad. Today stiu know how to say so long never see you! Same pattern so long never see first thing is gl me. 你 okay 吗?! Crazy! Lol. Yalah, you rest early also, see you tomorrow {:

{edited} 6:40am
Finished episode 8. God, something happened! Grandma came out in the middle of the night asking stupid questions. Sigh, what should i do?! I need help! ):

2008-10-30T05:53:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSLINDA(jaja)! :D

Lol, back home once again.
Was only able to fall asleep at 730 this morning, slept till 12 only, woken up by Eugena's call. Bathe, ate then out to plaza with her. Lrt/Mrt to compass/vivo. Walked around, met sam and gf. Asked around loh, sick of filling up forms, so sick! Have to write so many things. Anyway the job that i hope i'll get is the fair at vivo during christmas, Precious Thoughts. But not Secret Recipe! I hate this though i know i've high possibility to get this job. It's only 5/hr i guess. Have to wear long blank pants, specified no jeans. Black shoes, uniform provided. I don't know whattf is wrong lah. Have to go for injection then they won't pay you unless you worked for 3months there. Hello, we're only working for 2months, so do we get paid for it too? Crap. Wento alot of shops lah, so dumb, we ran from NikeGolf after filling up the forms. Maybe it's not the type for us? The funny thing was we saw the sales person outside of vivo when we told him we're going back which we don't intend to do so, HAHA. Phototaking, chit chat, then daiso. Alot of things caught my eye uh. Got this pretty cute socks, happy [: Compass after daiso. Walked around to decide whato have for dinner. Saw photoshop so stopped to print photos out. Follow by mac, kenny called to meet me up. So met him and jarl for that slight while then to some void deck, ate/chitchatted/slack. Walked home with gf around 10+. Early home today, what's on tomorrow? Hope guys can make it! *Pray hard! x.x
& ya, my photos taken today, look abit crazy uh. Gf said im mad today also. Should be cause of some particular reason. When my cbutt dropped out i shouted like a crazy woman smiling/laughing so happily to myself. Then they can make me laugh so easily today, when im a person whom won't be affected easily. Lol! Nevermind bout that. Just enjoyed myself today? With the company of them, i forget bout it not totally, but slightly better when im alone.
Alright, goodbye/goodnight. Gonna watch my show till i happy tonight. No disruptions [:
Ohya, kenny you owe me one. You know i know can alrdy, HAHA! Keep your words well uh! He'll be going to camp tomorrow with Jarl. ): Ngyanlin gonna miss them aye? Eww, so sad.. Better text me up as usual get it! Love love :D

Shiyu: Lol, it's cooler than north pole i guess! All super jiao! 0.0
G: Huh? Not finding liao uh. Yaloh, 说的也是. Should have enjoy this time first hor. [:
Julian: God, chio?! Like this i god's daughter liao. HAHA
Seah kuan yew: Here here here! Lol, julian force you tag her isit? Why bother, hayo.. LOL
Ken: Lol, block of wood! =x Neh neh, neh neh, where pervert? HAHA.
Jaja: Haha, welcome welcome! :D

2008-10-29T02:22:00.011+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELSIE SEAH! :D

Indeed late for post, but well, i've a draft with me [:
Out of a sudden missing this group of friends, not including someone but well.. Don't talk bout it.
Woke at 3 by Elsie Seah's call. Bathe then 43 alone to parkway look for Weian, Yahhui, Elsie & Zhongsheng. The bus, 1hour plus, not long -.- Met Elsie Seah first, then sat there play/talk. Find it bored after awhile, wento shop with Elsie Seah. Shopped alot of clothings uh, lol. Super love the top from Dorothy Perkins which me & Elsie Seah have it! Black one, nice nice! :D HAHA. Bout 9+ Bingcheng came, ate at foodcourt. Weian went back to pack & stuff, then waited for Yahhui to knock off, all of us wento bus stop. Elsie Seah's father came to fetch, dropped all of us off at Hougang. Then i 88 home, reached at 1145.
Lol, many been asking, no intention to salvage it? Why must i make the first move? In this situation i don't think im in the wrong at all. I do not have to apologise nor talk to her first, isn't it? HA, so what if i love being sarcastic to her from that day onwards, she deserve it doesn't she? So what if she apologised? Everything's gonna be in the original place again? Sick of all this problems, so stop asking me how's me & her. Nothing will change unless she has the initiative to make every first move. I don't bother, why? She's at fault.
Wahahaha, gonna continue watching my 黑糖马奇朵 soon. Ao Quan & Xiao Yu is so cute too! :D Julian you want wangzi uh? Give you loh, HAHA! Ng yan lin please sleep early tonight, you've to go out with girls for jobs interview tomorrow, be a good girl just for this night okay! HAHA, goodbye/goodnight. Ohya, damn shit! I forgot to call mommy up today! It's her operation date! Slap me! Gonna call her up tomorrow the first thing i woke up!

Weiliang: Concern leis -.- lol
Shiyu: Lol, got when she not cool before, HAHA!
Julian: DIAM! What yours? You think you really Miss Universe uh? Stop day-dreaming lah. I thought that day i woke you up alrdy but i found out you're getting from bad to worse, aweful. HAHA!
G: Okay lah, stiu can't find jobs loh. You? [:
Doreen: Haha, YO! Thanks [:

{edited}
It's 5:35 on my lapt now. Which means, it's now alrdy a special occasion to someone. I hope you're happy, that's all. Let's not cross each others life, anymore.
Finished watching 2more episode, lot more to go. Watched those behind scenes, damn funny, laughed my ass out! Oh, & not forgetting this, while watching the show, cried at a particular part, because of her, bloody bitch. This caused me to touched things in my heart. I'll think bout this matter tonight, don't thank me. Thank the show if you want.

2008-10-28T23:53:00.010+08:00

♥ Exhausted.

Im not late for post today, it's tuesday yup tuesday [:
Surprisingly uh, can go for jog in morning without any sleep! But took my nap from 2 to 8. Kenny wanted to meet but i wants to stay at home to acc grandma for today. Been going out often lately. Woke up, had porridge, went downstairs at 10 to chill alone for 30mins. Home, watched tv while waiting for ahmei to finish using the lapt & now's my turn. She's going for camp tomorrow, & i think she must be real sad, she paid 15bucks for some hairdye ended up having darker hair, hahaha! Okay, Eugena asked me out tomorrow. Money will be spent again. She wants movie, hope so tomorrow we can rush for the student price ticket.
Nah, shouldn't say much, gonna watch tv, vampire.k using lapt, follow by horror movies uncle sent. Alright, bye ^^

I doesn't seem to care, anymore? [:

Shiyu: [:
Elsie: Okay, & you too! Better give me a message if necessary oh. ^^
Julian: Lol! -.-
Daphanie: 0.0 ?! Miss you too! :D
Weiliang: Lol, 我一向来都有 blog lor. Is you never view bah. Lol, however my nuffnang, you appeared here for 22times -.-
Quack: Lol, yah! Eh faster meet me leis leis leis. Stiu need your meimei Olvl stiu long. We also can meet go out first mah, i bored dead at home. HAHA :D

{edited} 2:26
Whahaha, watched Hot Shot online also, though the tricks a lil fake lah, but stiu love that show, 言承旭's stiu so shuai! Lovelovelove! :D 小猪's too so blur & cute, HAHA! I can't believe that guy in the show name Ge Li Ya actually dunk with his own ability! He even stayed in the air like a batman! &&& i've kept a draft in my blogger acc so that i can blog it on 29th for Elsie Seah! I know i'll be late, so clever this time round, saved a draft in there edit & post when im home again at night! [: Oh, & just saw weiliang's blog. I think i more powerful, yours from malaysia, mine from india! Damn, 8% from india reads my blog, creepy, HAHA. Keep editing my post recently. Hope i can get some sleep early today. Don't wanna waste the dark night away, byebyebye. Got time will edit again, hehe. ^^
5:12
HAHA! As expected! Back again. Watched 黑糖玛奇朵 Brown Sugar Macchiato. Only caught 2episode, as 1 consists 70mins and more. 王子 so shuai also can! :D Shall continue when im bored at home. Anyway i finished vampire knight at crunchyroll till only epi 13. Hope the whole story is being published out alrdy. Gonna go to bed soon, if not tomorrow will be my no-out day again. Goodnight/Goodmorning!

2008-10-28T01:21:00.006+08:00

♥ Heartache?

This post is for monday, im always late for actual day post. Wento kster with jul and mel. Like after thousand years finally we made our way there. But that means, money's gonna fly leaving big hole behind for sure. The price was $16++. Left at around 730. Mel went off with bf, jul mrt home, while i alighted at hougang. 72 look for weian. Wento eat with him at coffee shop, thanks for the milo [: After dinner wento 7eleven shopped. It's now then i know the small tub of ice-cream cost $6.50! That's way too ex man! Can't believe it. Okay, then wento Elsie's house with her sister brother and mom at home. Her mommy's real funny when she talked to bingcheng. He scolded her in msn then she called him & shouted at him, lol! Stayed around then left at 11, took 88 home alone. Home around 1130. Sister was using the lapt so waited till 1 and it's my turn. Mommy called today to give me a website for job. Shall check it out later.
I've to thank weian alot bah? He spent his time talking to me in msn yesterday till 4plus in the morning. I did his so-called test. Lol, the result's something i've been running away from for some time. He told me it's time to wake myself up. Like, self deception? Lol, but seriously, thanks lah. Sorry nelly, i've to say here, i love weian as pure friend, HAHA.
Well, for that veh minute i read it. My reaction wasn't as strong/big as before. Heartache? I dare not say not at all, but. A lil lil lil tiny bit? Will do. Im satisfied with who im now. I've began to believe i live for myself not others. I want a new life from now on. Never trust you people again, i'll trust myself. Or rather, be some autism child buy a huge soft toy and talk to it all day long, HAHA.
Ohya, forgotten to mention, i pamper myself with a gold watch i loved when i first saw it. Just spent my money on it without much hesitation. My wallet's rather empty now, but whatever, uncle said he'll pay for it hope he do so tomorrow the first thing i wake up [:
I wanna start looking for jobs from tomorrow onwards. It's time to keep myself occupied isn't it. Okay, bye. Gonna surf the web mommy gave, goodbye/goodnight. ^^

Elsie: Okay, hope so yesterday was the end of everything, thanks lah! [: But it took you such long time to get over yours. Mine, now i feel that.. Rather impossible. Haha! Okay lah, i said i'll try means i'll try. I said it's past means it's past. Hope my feeling's not gonna get mixed up again. Loves :D
Shiyu: Haha, yep. Thanks though [:
G: Hey Glenna Teo Yina!! HAHA :D
Julian: Lol, partly is their gay actions mah. Okay edited, saw the bold ones? HAHA. Hana thanks lah thanks lah! Love you guys k ^^
Weiliang: Wth you talking -.-
Ken: You shut up my bitch! HAHA x.x

{edited}
Gosh, good morning! It's alrdy 7 in the morning and im stiu up! x.x Gonna get some sleep then continue my vampire knight from episode 8 later on! Goodbye!
{edited} 11:59
Im back! Well well well, didn't wento bed as said, wento jog straight after i off my comp, changed and out alone. Out for 1hour, back, rest awhile, bathe, lie down awhile waited for gf's reply. Met her at rp for breakfast around 9? After breakfast wento void deck she studies awhile then back home. Should be going to parkway later to look for weian. Shall move on for my vampire knight first, bye! :D

2008-10-27T00:35:00.008+08:00

♥ Thick skinned

Saturday
Out to tpy collect shirt, keep on seeing qunzhe over there. After collecting shirt, 26 to mommy's house alone. Bought cake up to surprise her. She gave me a cheeky smile when i hand her the cake. Stayed over there, chit chatted with xiaodi & jun. Baby's sick, hope she gets well soon. 26 back to tpy, 159 to amk, met elsie & bingcheng, went up steamboat look for weian and co. End up they stiu eating, so went outside to wait. Found it bored after awhile, went off to shopped alone, got alot of things. Went back, walked to some place at amk with swings there. Played and stuffs, my mood wasn't that good anyway. 1030 left all of them, 13 to j8 looked for aunt and co for movie. Left with first row so they decided to change place. After checking with internet. Wento amk hub. This made my trip wasted -.- Caught 145 The Coffin. Stiu ok, i won't rate high as it didn't scare me out of my wits. Home at 4.

Sunday
Woke up at 5 in the afternoon. Waited for dinner to come, however, pizza that aunt ordered was real long so gave it a miss. Wento plaza get something, then 372 to some place to meet someone. I swear im real happy for that short 20mins talk. We had our conver and i've snaps of that person. Cool, the feeling came back, just like years ago. After that wento compass bought my studs and stuff. Heard bout something, ran my way down. What's this suppose to mean? Bullshit isn't it! But there's something i found out which is so true, the first person i told bout this thing is stiu that person. However, you didn't seemed to care with the reply "okay"? I was fine after the talk with weian, and jiyou plus jiawei's actions. & of course Julian and Natalie! They really did 开导 till me. Thanks alot. & i stiu strongly believe my heart wasn't at the wrong place at all. Why are you pple keep telling me things the other way round? Seriously, i don't uds at all.
I owe you nothing. I wanted to let it go nicely, you were the one making things difficult for me. You need time? I need more time than you. But why i seem to take things much more easier than you do. This is a small matter, yes. But it's been going on for 3months, time to solve it isn't it? Stop running away from reality and me.
You don't seem to have any wounds, you don't seem to have the need of hailing it either. So, why? I making you more pressurize? Or you the one making me more and more pressurize each day? I shiver everytime i hear your name doesn't mean anything at all. You were my past, i said it's past, & i mean it. Past.

I miss you {:

Shiyu: Haha, really? Thanks! It's from bugis anyway [:
Weiliang: What won't be next time? You never mean it when you apologise. The next day you'll start your nonsense again, hor?
Whoami: If i read the book, what if i got hurt? All for love on a day like today, okay thanks. Don't miss me. -.- Who're you? The same old one coming to mine and Natalie's blog. Can you tell me who exactly are you? Please and thanks!
Natalie: Yah, not the first time. x.x

2008-10-25T01:35:00.010+08:00

♥ Responsibility

This is super uber cool! Try it out! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! :D

Went over to somewhere near bugis for Seesha. Ended up? Every single shop asked for identification card, damnit! Hate this, went all the way there for nothing. Don't we even look old??? Forget it. Then to street, shopped. At least i didn't made a real wasted trip there, happy ^^ All i spent was only $10 and i got so much in return. 80 to kovan met weian weiliang zhongsheng and bingcheng. They went for dinner, then to pool at bowl centre. Didn't played much though, bingcheng's super zai siols! See till my eyes roll with his ball, HAHA. Pissed for some reason but not gonna mention it. & it's expensive, we merely played for awhile i guess. 2tables, total $25.70. Gosh. Ohya did i mention i got my hair dyed stiu? Yup. Tomorrow's mommy's 36 year old birthday if im not wrong. I wanna give her a surprise, her surgery's on 29th. Plan to go to her house without informing her with cake in my hand, stiu not confirmed yet. Which kind soul would wanto accompany me? [: Hms, fat hope.
Gonna go tpy to collect my shirt then to mommy house. I have the sudden craving for breakfast at mac veh veh veh early in the morning, anyone? :D My morning is real morning, i mean maybe 5? Im mad, haha. Baobei asked me for jog, sadly it's my mommy bday, so sorry. Back home 1030, quite early today.

Ohya, you wanna hold me down with your words? What motive have you had i wouldn't know. I've learnt this important thing in my life, never judge it's book by it's cover. Beware when they said they are your true friends. You'll never know when they throw away their mask and show you rainbow colours!!!
Im tired, byebye. Please call me up if you're kind enough to acc me for the day [:

Maogk: Who're you? The same person from Natalie's blog isn't it?
Xinyi: Oh really..
Yihui: Relinked! [:

Weiliang: I where dare to angry, later you gl somemore i die. Lol!

Shiyu: Yoyoyo!

You seemed to have stop your nonsense.

This is when i started..

Missing you.

2008-10-23T02:04:00.003+08:00

♥ Chapters In Life

Wento school for past few days. Nothing much, been bringing psp to school, lessons were bored! Not a proper lesson was conducted at all. Doubt many will be going to school tomorrow as it's last day for this year, so do i. Initially, didn't wanto post. But for the sake/because of somebody, i posted. I hoped/wished you know who you're. Thank you, as a friend, a sentence of words helped so much when im going crazy. I trust you, tonight, now. I've known you, roughly bout a year and more. Until now, then i'll assure my words, "i trust you". The one i turn to when im lost. You were the one whom guide me through. As a friend, i love you as much. [:
Though im stiu not in good state when you put down the phone. But, my heart just flew with you with a mere takecare.
Today: Zion house, Tpy, Plaza, Void deck, Mac, Somewhere, Home at 12.
Do hope you bear my words in mind and study hard. But if you don't like it, take it as a casual remark then [:
Nothing new, wanted to have my hair dyed tomorrow for only $60. Not only grandma, uncle & aunt all chup in to nag. 2months only blah blah blah, if want use own money from bank so expensive then why not buy and dye it yourself. If treatment's included like why not, the prob lies here, this actually damages my hair. This troubled me for a moment, am so hesitating to dye or not. Have to go back to school for don't know what cca things. Happy thing is, no remedials :D The veh next step into school, i'll be 17. Time flies fast aye. Most agreed. 2more pathetic years and i'll be 18, 18, 18! I'll get whatever i want by then. Ohya, wento tpy today to get my fbt shirt ready. Hope it turns out nice, chose a black shirt with white stripes, "黄燕淋 23" was requested. Have a total of 9pants now. Stiu awaiting for purple colour to come so it sums up to 10, lol.
Okay, had my runs yesterday. Double runs, first refers to jogging alone, second refers to runs in toilet. Don't know what went wrong also. Anyway for all i know was, after the run yesterday, im suffering due to my legs. The pain comes only when i go down the stairs, weird.
Not going to school tomorrow means another day off, shall spend more time for jogs now. If not when jobs come rolling in i won't even have the time to sleep/eat.
Alrights, it's 3am now. Goodbye/Goodnight.

Hey "bitch"!
I love you lah [:

Jaja: Lol, okay thanks, i will [:
Cheeyen: Haha, you also never contact me lor. Give me a text i'll make a day free just for you and nana okay. Miss you too! <3s
Julian: You better shut up. This is call complicated but cool. Anyway your price for vugarities alrdy $3. Now add $0.40. Cause you said jiao & one more you wrote this _L_ Gone case, i'll tell big mother to look at my blog! HAHA.
Shiyu(:: Thanks!
Slattery: Relinked! [:

2008-10-20T22:49:00.006+08:00

♥ Better in time

What on earth is going on.
Im fucking pissed.
Things are changing, even people are all changing bits by bits with time. Why would i bother to cry when it's not my problem. Why would i bother to feel troubled when it's not my problem, why would i bother to resolve things when it's not my problem. Why? Ask your heart, do you think you're not at fault, you mean, at all? Shut me up if it's yes. Everyone has their limits for things. Why do you people do things without sparing a thought for others? I've had enough. Forget it can solve anything why would i waste my day bothering bout this kind of thing.
I've lost a friend? Why do you think i would write that for? Do i/we even stand a place at your heart now? We're all grownups, please. Why not give it a best shot and stop all these stupid things going on and on?
Do whatever you all wish, im washing my hands off this!

Sam: I no jio you out? You think properly..
Jiawei: Lol, i didn't know you actually use comp -.-
Waichun: Hi classchairman! Seriously, i didn't know bout it, interesting. x.x
Slattery: You're missed too! [:
Maogk: Who are you? If you wish to interfere, why not have your name down here first thanks.
Kiki: Hi! [:

2008-10-18T23:26:00.003+08:00

♥ Sunshine after rain

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JARL! :D

Sorted out my thoughts. It's time to let go of two things at a time. The time is ripe to think now, however it's useless. Im useless, isn't it?

Thanks to my girlfriends & kenny. Thank you.

Been wasting alot of time outside, there's seriously too much time for me to do anything. How i wished Nlvls are stiu on going. I won't have anytime to play/think/talk. It's been real long since i cried my heart out until yesterday. The feeling wasn't good. At all. I promised myself with some stuffs today, shall not say it out until it's done.

I've lost a friend [:

This is true, the person not involved were pulled into it. The person involved were not playing any parts in it with the help of someone covering every fault that person did. Is this even fair. Don't mind me saying, true friends are hard to come by these days. They stab you without you knowing it. That's all i've to say. That messaged was sent hoping to solve things but instead they chose to make it worse then so be it.

Out/Bugis tomorrow anyone? [:

You'll be seen as a pea one day, to me.

2008-10-17T23:53:00.007+08:00

♥ Devastated
She named me, smokerholic.
Bad to worst.

- School
- Home
- Toa payoh
- Sengkang
- Playgrounds/Void decks
- Home

All along,

why is he stiu so much better than you,

when the one i yearn for is you.

2008-10-14T23:46:00.007+08:00

♥ HOPE, LOVE, TRUST, FAITH.

Wento iKea & Giant with my girls today. Nothing in particular, just went for fun [: Did enjoyed, partly the phototaking part! Please try the soft ice cream at iKea, i swear you guys will love it so much! Excitement went all over me when i introduced the ice cream to my girls & they agreed it's superb nice! :D It's only $1.50, pleaseeee try it out! HAHA. Sound like some promoter stuff. Okay, met 2groups of people at night. Chinkiat & co. + later on kenny & jarl. They stiu likes to bully me so much despite some days not meeting them up. Especially jarl! Okay, sec3s just finished their end year papers, tomorrow would be a marking day for them whereas a off day for us! & i hate school, asked us back today just for the sake of coming back. Through out the day what we did was palying with electronic devices, running about, talking or sleep. Rather bored in school. Kept on counting the time down to dismissal, dumb. Oh & thanks serene! Didn't know you actually visits my blog, anyway but thanks! [: It's alrdy 430am now, i've been wondering for the whole day should i join the girls tomorrow to kelly sevices. Im not in the mood to do all these. Maybe not in the mood yet? It's hard to say, & mommy just found one at bugis? Maybe it would turn out better? But it's only 900+ per month. Alright drop this topic. I shall decide thoroughly later while im going to bed, to join Germaine, weiliang & co. Or to join my girls to toa payoh though it's kind of far. Anyway, i had a better post before this, something was messed up with all those htmls so now most of it i've forgotten what i wrote. Whatever, & nah i shouldn't say more here, goodbye. Do not miss me, i'll be back soon. ^^

G: Welcome [:

Xinyi: Yup, i'll try to remember all those things we said. [:

Kailin: Welcome [:

Weiliang: HAHA, sexy mah. :D

Doreen: Lol! That is jaja's signature move! ^^

Shiyu: YO! HAHA :D

Jaja: Haha, it's okay. They said you? Lol, i don't know bout it. Meet you soon uh! [:

2008-10-12T18:43:00.018+08:00

♥ Once again, Crushed. (11)

Hello, yup. Im back! I bet you guys missed me! Oh that's somehow thick-skinned after my chalet trip uh. Wouldn't talk much for the time being, home around 610 in the morning. Slept my way through evening. Gonna meet gf up so would be back to post again tonight. Homan! My eyes are swollen.. o: Goodbye & don't miss me yet [:

{edited}

10,11, 12th Oct 2008

Photos taken at chalet. [:

This is the fucking kopitiam with ratS running around in the middle of the night!

Stupid thing i did to mahjongs when im waiting for my turn to bathe.

Okay, overall, not much comments. Just enjoyed 2days not back for home. Quite alot came for chalet, so wouldn't bother to write out all names. Hope people stiu enjoyed. & Happy Belated Birthday & thanks to clarence. For the first night, the part that i rememebred is when me & Eugena joined the guys out for fishing at the park. Muhammad & Johnathan? joined us, after quite some time when all of us gets bored, i decided to head back to resort for some mahjong. Couldn't really remember clearly what we did, too much things if i were to say it out. Ohya, wento Ehub, it's a damn shopping mall! The songs that are being played seems to be against me alot, i mean alot! One after another, it's stiu with the same meaning. Wanted to go for movie cause of some reasons decided not to. Wanted to bowl, but full-house, ours is on waiting list. End up, the guys went for bowl while we stayed in room. Shouldn't say much, chalet brings back too much too much of beautiful memories. It's so beautiful that i doesn't wished to be reminded at all. It hurts, alot. "If only..." Quote that keeps on flashing through my head these days at chalet. Drop this thing, there's school on tuesday, happy/sad. What on earth is going on. This is really getting on my nerves.

Second half of today

2008-10-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

Lalalalala.. Im going to chalet chalet chalet, mommy allow me to stay for 3days 3days 3days.

Hahaha, stupid heading for this post. Anyway, mommy's surgery is on the 29th of Oct. She'll be fine she'll be fine she'll be fine [:

Let me show you guys mommy & my conver in messages.

Girl: My dear mom, so do you allow me to stay overnight for tomorrow's chalet?

Mommy: Ya! But when will you be back?

Girl: Sunday lor, can? I go home with xinyi..

Mommy: Okay! Behave yourself, i trust you well!

Girl: Yup no problem thanks mommy i love you

Everybody saw that? The first time in my 16years in this world i said ilu to mommy.

Well well well, okay. I won't be back till sunday. Gonna have my 12hours beauty sleep after this, rest enough to ton enough, HAHAHA. Something sad, school reopening next tuesday then it continues for weeks. Sick, how i wish no more lessons would be conducted. But sadly, we'll be having lessons for sec5 stuffs. Ewww, i stiu have 1more bloody year in this school, how i wished this is my last year then i'll fly off to art school then i'll fly around the world for attachments. So i'll leave this cruel world. Then Weian said what bout them? Am i gonna forget them? Nope, i'll remember, what is msn? It's connected around the world isn't it? HA.

Alright, thanks Eugena Phang for my painted nails [: Wento her house today with weiliang for it. & great thanks to weiliang. HAHA, for accompanying me uh at metro. Im good, didn't write out what was it :D Anyway, just hope to enjoy this 3days of staying over lah. Hope people that promised to come, comes. Didn't say bout it at all, don't bother to come. Okokay, byebye, people don't miss me, i'll be so shy >.<

2008-10-09T00:00:00.007+08:00

Wtfwtfwtf! I missed the clock by 1second! Just that 1second for this post!

End up.. My post appeared as 12:00am, damnit! Can't help but to change my header.

Wednesday, 08 Oct 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINKIAT & KENNY! :D

2008-10-07T16:22:00.010+08:00

Upset/Disappointed.

Out soon, tags reply for the time being.

Not forgetting, thanks leroy [:

Doreen: Thanks, linked you up too! [:

Natalie: Okay thanks, but sadly you can't join us for charlet. Concentrate on your studies & goodluck! [:

Julian: Thanks lah, hope so lor..

Xinyi: Haha, thanks. Yup, look for us when your paper ends. [:

;D: Oh, hey thanks! Well im not pretty, & may i know who you are? [:

Eve: It's enough when you stiu remember me! I hope my mom would be fine too. You too, takecare of yourself. & i swear im happy to see your tag [: Thanks eve!

偶然想起,

似乎还是放不下..

也许不回头,

我会更快了吧..?

但事实上,

我还是挂念着那个画面..

{edited}

11:25

Yesterday went out with kenny & jarl. Caught Disaster Movie. Quite a nice one, kenny on my left, like no reactions at all. Jarl on my right, his laughter kept me laughing non-stop. Sort of celebrated kenny's birthday early lah. Cause he knows that i'll be celebrating with chinkiat & co. Anyway. their bday falls on the same day, lol. Then played/slack/talked. Back to compass met jul for dinner. Then met weiliang & co. Walked to somewhere near jul house, we crapped alot! Like i mean, gossip more, HAHA. Home around 12.

Today, went out as usual. Before going out, received mommy's message. Telling me the date & illness she've got. I cried & called jul, i don't know whato do. I asked mommy what's that, she explained.. Been leaving house at 4 these days, don't know why like to waste time alot. Cause there's a feeling i've too much time to spend, lol. Then to plaza, bus to jaja's house. Met weian weiliang, 89 to pasir ris. Met qunzhe daryn gi & clarence. Walked to Red house. Dumb ass, we crawled or i mean climbed in, then initially wanted to walk into the house alrdy, like only 5foot away, weian say someone from building looking at us. So we decided to head back before police comes. Pasir ris park to look for gf. 403 to interchange, whitesand for dinner. Chinkiat, zion & jiyou came. Slacked, 89 back home. Not bad, home quite early today. Will be out to celebrate chinkiat's bday tomorrow, chatting with gi for plans. Hope something good comes out, HAHA.

Fyi, what i heard from grandma, a getai singer Linli passed away yesterday. Quite saddening, he's a good comedy singer. No one fails to smile/laugh when he's around. RIP.

&&& im feeling more & more guilt ridden each day. I know i shouldn't avoid them as im trying hard not to now. It's like maybe im partly the reason why they both turned out this way? I felt so bad when he have to be pushed away from me. I shouldn't have let them started all this nonsense. Im the cause of it? I swear i wouldn't ask either of them to share unless they approach first!

Elsie: Yup, thanks! [: & i just found out today when my mom got the results & operation date. I know what that illness is alrdy, but not an good idea to write it here. I'll call you when im breaking down anytime. Just hope that she'll be fine like what you guys said..

Shiyu: Oh, it's bout my mommy. Anyway but thanks, hope you enjoy too [:

2008-10-06T00:47:00.006+08:00

Sunday, 5th of Oct, 1:00am

Upset.
I started the post with this word. I don't know whato say. I decided to come home early, call mommy, ask for permission to stay over at chalet. When i called, yes. She's stiu as sarcastic as before. But as we talked, she suddenly told me bout jobs thing. Asked me to look for Noreen ahyi for job since my interest is in art. Why not spend time killing 2 birds with one stone, earn money & do the thing i like. Well, okay nvm bout this part. Then mommy chatted with me. Told me, i'll get my phone on 20th of Nov as she promised, asked me to send her the model of my new phone. We discussed bout it. Then, mommy asked me something after seconds of silence. "Can you stay for 1day instead of 2days at the chalet?" I remained silent. Then she asked again, "what if my operation falls on the first day of your chalet, how?" Few seconds of silence again. I was crying at that moment. I didn't even know what fucking operation mommy's gonna undergo. I fucking blamed myself. I act as if i knew what operation it is & told mommy "I'll go for you before i head for chalet" & i told myself, im not gonna leave until i see her out. We talked properly in a weird manner. When grandma came back, i asked what happened to mommy, then she told me what the operation was about, but not in full info. I didn't ask more, went aside to hide & cry. I don't know i should say sorry or whatever shit to mommy.
Yes, i hate her. But afterall she's stiu my mother. Joanna told me, this shows that i stiu cares for mommy. I know, but im stiu upset. Don't try to console me, nobody can. How do you uds me when i don't even uds myself?
God, this is the first time i said/asked/prayed for mommy. Just make sure everything goes on smoothly.
& it's only the enjoying of 3rd day out of 10days holidays. It's starting to get bored. Waiting for weiliang's call everyday to decide where to go. Kind of miss D & T room suddenly, the feeling of having Nlvls paper on your desk, the feeling of getting anxious over what questions will be out. Serious, but stiu. Have to wait till dec for results. Hope this 1month's hardwork paid off. Gonna enjoy for maybe atmost 2weeks? Then start work alrdy. Dowan to waste too much time without money. Kenny, Chinkiat, Clarence's birthday are all coming, troubled over money, not presents. Went out in evening, met weian, then to jaja's house, then compass, met weiliang & jul. Walked, crapped. To some playgrounds, talked again. Walked home with accompany of weliang. Chat, don't know whato add on. Home at 1045. Shall go around surfing for some games for now. Bye.

G: Yup, replied.
Julian: Lol, yah. I discover it yesterday also. & please, your sister. Does it even look that bit like you? LOL.
Jaja: Lol, there'll sure be next time. Weiliang even planned nicely yesterday [:
Shiyu: Lol, yup. I wrote 3 budden don't know press till what end up sent.

或许/也许/要是/如果...
你不会回头吧.?

2008-10-05T03:55:00.016+08:00

Saturday, 4th of Oct

Movie with liang, jul, ger, dor, dex, yahhui, weian & nelly. Eagle eye Digital. A recommended show, it's my opinion, i think it's nice & thrilling. But weian & some others feel that it's bored. Don't know? Anyway, enjoyed lah, at cine. Sam came to look for us. Then to vivo, ate. Talk & take pictures awhile then back to sengkang, actually meeting qz at hougang but end up he not free. Then me, liang, jul, ger, sam & weian wento somewhere near jul house talk. Walked home with the accompany of liang, ger & sam as they wanto take bus from my house too. Reached home around 1230. Nice. No keys! One of my key don't know drop or forgotten to bring out. Even now stiu don't know cause lazy to check. Kenny wanted to come look for me, but better not. Have to go up once sister is home might as well don't meet. Luckily waited for not long sister cab home. & so it's now 430am. Sister & me both stiu on comp, grandma's gonna scream to the top when she knows bout it, so not saying more, gtg. Byebye, goodnight, don't miss me darlings! [:

Changed song. Look hard into the lyrics. Thanks xinyi [:

Friday, 3rd of Oct

Im officially free!!! :D Maths paper2 was hell easy, but to be safe than sorry don't put too high hopes on it. But an A would sure be possible lah! Real happy, messaged kenny after paper straight, telling him im finally free! HAHA. Geog overall was stiu okay. But Quek a lil lose face, alot of people wanted to leave in the middle of the paper around 320? Which we ends at 4. The rule for N's are you can leave after the paper has started for 1hour, but not to leave when there's only 30mins left for the paper. Like geog is the only paper with 1hour 30mins which means no leaving at all -.- So all stayed, i slept for whole full 30mins. But i did finish my paper okay! Only questions is to be done. Moreover river was stiu okay, hope food with those crap i wrote can help to pull marks up [: After paper, at 4pm, arts student are totally free!~ They are all wearing a smile on their face, while i felt the other way round, maybe too exhuasted? Didn't sleep well nor had enough sleep for continuous days anyway. But whatever im stiu freed!

Late afternoon, out to buangkok to eat with jaja's family. Then to her house. Ger, jaja, jaja mommy & me was chatting in the room. Okay loh, felt much better after pouring so many things out. I swear when my mood is low i'll visit jaja's family! I'll be enlighten for sure :D

The thought of this reminded me i hasn't been seeing mommy for 1month, is this great? Or should i miss her? But, whenever she calls, the sound of her voice just pissed me off. Don't come suan le, stiu give those fierce voice act one concern end up call to scold only. Shut this topic, if not i'll complain non-stop. Home around 1, was sent home by liang, jaja & ger, thanks [:

Thursday, 2nd of Oct

These are those things i drew in the middle of the night while talking to kenny & studying for N's maths paper2. It's around 12plus at that time, day before last paper.

By Kenny&Jarl

Real tiring day but stiu met kenny & jarl as promised. Didn't acc them to town due to Lee's remedial so met in the afternoon. These are pictures of their drawings. Can't deny kenny's drawing is superb! The forever friend's my favourite! [:

Elsie: Yup yup, okay lah. You can do it only when you have faith & believe in yourself. So with your last paper, keep thinking that you'll do well so then you'll really do well. Goodluck & workhard okay! :D

Shiyu: Okay, finally. & relinked [:

Julian: Siao uh? -.-

Yihui: Oh, thanks! Goodluck for your any remaining papers too! [:

2008-10-02T00:59:00.016+08:00

Desmond took this, rather random when he was playing with weiliang's phone camera.

This proof that im not playing around all day, i've been studying hard every minute :D

This brought back something bad when i saw it somewhere at sk. [:

This is Julian Ang xiaoli & her terrapin. What i heard from her is her mom thinks that she's lonely so here's one accompany. Like omgwtf. HAHAHA.

Jamie stayed over at our place for 2days, she's cute! [:

YO people! :D

It's 1:27 in the morning now & Ngyanlin is finally finally finally back! I wouldn't be saying what happened, where i was, what i did as my memory is not as good. I stiu need plenty of GB to hold my geog notes & maths formula. Been out studying everyday. It's real true everyday. Last few days was rushing for art with weiliang all day long, he went home everyday around 12+ or 1+am. Rushed our art & ahmei was good enough to help him with it. Im the real stress one. Before art previous previous day stayed up till 6, slept. Previous day, stayed up till 330, slept for merely few hours, wanted to go skuu early to meet Weiliang & Ngo. End up late, waited for cab no cab, wanted to rush 163 suddenly look into my bag as a strong instinct tells me that i've forgotten something & it's my Entry proof! Like damn shit! Ok, so ended up auntie's bf sent me to skuu, made it in time for assembly. Had 3 long hours there in the air-conditioned room rushing with our finals. I banged my head against the table at 930 & fell asleep. Had a nightmare between that short 5mins, some sort of sound in my nightmare woke me up, it's like luckily. So continued with it. The clock ticks 11 & all of us was like phew finally it's over! Now with lesser burden i felt so light even when i go out. Without my art file & all these.. & something great, i think maths paper one is easy, an A1 is possible. But wouldn't guarantee for paper2. A lil scared, hope it's as easy as 10year series questions. *Pray hard. Geog shall do my best, like linjie said, if the god wants me to pass it'll be great if it's destined i've to fail that paper then so be it. &&& this friday is my last paper!!!! Amaths pupils get jealous! We worked hard on tue while they need not go to skuu, but we're going to have 8days of holidays after friday, they stiu have to wait till 7th Oct to end. Hee, im feeling so great! :D Sorry but please accept it. Alright whatever, studied today again. No skuu tomorrow, but need to wake early for Lee's remedial ): Make do with it, it'll be over soon. I get veh panicked over my maths. Cause the latest news from my uncle was if i got any 3sub total 3marks, can get a psp, need not L1B2 which is Eng. YEAH! So im counting on Chinese, Art & Maths baby! Oh please please. HAHA, happy happy. Just hope to do well that's it. Finish my sec5 & get out of the bloody skuu & i'll be grateful! Ok, gonna study again tomorrow after 10. Worth the while to get pleasure [:

Met kenny & jarl yesterday, Missed them real much, finally they initiated a meetup [: Compass then they had their dinner? At bball court. Walked back to compass around 10? Thanks kenny for the jacket as it was pouring out of a sudden. Ohya, don't wear specs! Then he goes "WHY???" HAHA. & jarl, julian remembers this clearly "Wtf i knew it" & "Oh, i've got my wallet as my umbrella" Lol, really funny out with them. Meet up real soon [:

Sorry for this long post, aching after typing too. Been long since i last touched lapt, the feeling's great but im gonna be late tomorrow for sure x.x

Byebyebye, be back after friday, don't miss me aye! :D

♥ Darling, do you stiu remember, jetstream was my love?

Shiyu: Goodluck to you too [:

Jaja: Lol, yah yah! Must defeat him! Don't let him get so arrogant over it! :D

Elsie: Okay [: No problem, i'll work hard for this last day. The more thing i think bout the more i get troubled/sad over it. Meaningless/Useless also. You must study hard too alright! Push you luck luck luck, with my charm you'll pass! HAHAHA ^^

Weian: Weian don't come bully leis, we girls' secret talk leis. HAHA!

Jon: Lol? I see..

2008-09-28T03:57:00.015+08:00

It's 5am now, & im really lazy to say what really happened these days.

Just had the chance to switch lapt on.
Shall reply tags & edit post when im free.

G: Don't worry, i'll be fine & thanks [:
Jon: Oh. Thanks & you are? Name please [:
Friend: Don't get what you really mean. & you are? Your name please too. & from Natalie's blog & mine, my instinct tells me that we know you, so yup. Do put your name down next time [:
Xinyi: Projector leis. Is compass not projector, & it's protractor not projector. Lool, you got 2mistakes at a time. Yalah but thanks [:
Jasper: LOOL. Good eng, HAHA!
18`497: Hey there! Thanks but im sure the stars are not holding me in anyway ._. Same to you, name please [:
Weiliang: Lol, surprised to see you writing these stuffs. But on the other hand glad too. Anyway, fyi, you're not the first to be informed, but you're the first one with the most detailed things told just today. Though it's a lil late, but stiu we had a great chat. I'll not to think that much. You, too. Don't think too much when you also know how to tell me it's 3days behind. But well, will be studying with you these 2days before Npapers comes again. So ya, & don't forsake peeling prawn, im gonna miss it so much & wouldn't even touch it again, HAHA.
Jaja: Omgomgomg, it's jaja! HAHA, okay thanks, make sure you work hard for yours too! Im gonna celebrate my 18th birthday at your house, your mommy gives me such great motherly love, then you should give me sister love, by right, we should be hand in hand to defeat weian! HAHAHA! :D
Jull: Oh thanks! Goodluck too! Im not hyper at night, im just.. Hms, maybe just a lil pervert towards you, not your terrapin. & please, just name it 两块钱 i think this name is so trendy & cool, he'll sure like it. Or maybe try what weiliang suggested 大粒 not bad also. & before i forget, i think you better stop using kerosene to wash your hair & thinks that it's a form of conditioner to your hair cause this is really bad for your health. HAHAHA! ^^ chiobu chiobu

Back to a short one for that friendship, trust me. It won't last, cause i doesn't matter at all. In another way, you matter. Wtf.

Lastly, to everyone, especially 4B & C! Goodluck & studyhard for our N's/O's. Enjoy only when it's time. [: & im going back to my art. Midnight oil for few days, whereas i can concentrate & mug hard for my science tomorrow. Alert alert, no stress no stress for Maths paper1 everyone! If not you're sure gonna be announced dead for paper2.

Remember, your letter.

Feeling the lacking of nicotine.

Running away from reality.

2008-09-24T22:43:00.007+08:00

I didn't wanted to post.. But well..
Am i, sucha ABCDEFG that you people will tend to ignore?
I suppose, but note this, i won't change, for anyone. I'll only change when i feel like it & when there's really a need.
Alright, i've been telling myself for umpteen times,
no emo no emo no emo, no stress no stress no stress.
But thanks to jasper's words, i can't seem to hold back my tears.
Now, my piorities are N's. After this, friends. After friends, fun. After fun, books, again.
Your speeches are too profound, i can't seems to understand any part of it.
Anyway latest news, my trip to Aust is dashed.

为何不放手

2008-09-23T22:52:00.004+08:00

♥ Regrets

I regret not studying well..

I regret not working hard..

I regret not heeding family's advises..

I regret not listening to peers..

I regret not treating grandma well enough..

I regret not facing this world upright before..

I regret, having lots of regrets.

I know it's not too late to change, but i do not have any determination to change, at all.

I regret not being a good friend.

But, i've never regret having you as a friend.

I've learnt new things today, once you regard him/her as a friend there's no more turning back. You can't possibly erase the friendship you ever had. You can't possibly ignore each other when you were once friends.

Fortunately, today's post head is ~~Dissapointment~~/Enlightment [:

I appreciate the reply, alot alot alot. This is not bull-shit. But i bet i'll stiu have to let this friendship go one day, it's always because of that particular reason. It has been the reason for half year & on, till today, it's stiu that reason. Whatever it is, im gonna take a step at a time, see what's gonna happen in time.

My art's completing, final with the story base of my grandparents & me. My schedule is almost fully packed till next week. Planned out this week's schedule, stiu manageable. Hope it goes like how i planned. Asked weiliang to play with specs in skuu tomorrow, so i'll be bringing mine along :D

Hope everyone finishes their course work in time, what's more dreadful is everyone have to draw a total of 4finals in a row. Trial, final, test by Ngo, big final. ~.~

-/ I hope what i heard/think/guess is, not true.

-/ I thank you for being a true friend [:

2008-09-22T16:59:00.006+08:00

Pisces: Even though you love them all dearly, your friends are not in synch with you, today.

♥
What's the defination for friendship, anyone?
I learn to not take things for granted, but. You took things for granted, isn't it?
Im too, not gonna specify who you are.
Trust me, i felt ridiculous after reading back your messages this morning, but what can i do other than saying sorry when im not even in the wrong at all, again.
To amend it or not is your decision now. I feel that im good enough to give this friendship once more chance. I want my studies to be good, so does yours. I don't mind helping you if you'd got the effort to take your spare time out for studying session. Even if it's you alone, i don't mind, as long as you do well & not lose any hope. You're good, i may not be your satisfying good friend. Well, i doesn't want more comments on you from me, im not qualified enough, ya? This time round, your turn to decide what's ahead of us. Your reply determines everything that is gonna happen.

Isit worth the while, getting sad over this kind of friendship?

2008-09-21T16:24:00.013+08:00

♥ Derrick R.

狗仔, 17years old - Derrick R.

太子, 16years old - Justin Chan

The Days.

Pisces: Why are you so busy trying to make everything perfect? Just relax and be human.

Rushing out, will be back tonight to update for fri, sat & sun [:

10:36

Im back [:

Friday

Went out only at 7, means school uni at home till 7 -.- Bathe then to compass alone to get some stuffs, 86 to cousin house, finally i saw Shirley, Stephanie & Gimson :D Went up, all the kids decided to stay overnight, we're up to no good i guess, HAHA! So stayed there did my art through out the night, almost cried when im stuck on trial. Called Ngo she told me how i should handle it but after 1hour stiu no ideas came out as i wanted to change my story, this is so damnful! >:( Decided not to touch my art till monday comes as Ngo's by my side. Crapped with cousins & so on.

Saturday

Woke up in the afternoon, wento mall eat with cousins, shopped, back to house around evening. Quite some peeps messaged, to those whom i didn't reply, sorry. End up decided to join Weian, weiliang, elsie, bingcheng, jaja, zs for movie at tamp. Wento jaja's house to look for weian weiliang first, then jaja's mommy gave me something, thanks thanks! Ong weian, she dote on me too hor! [: Went home change and keep my things went back again around 9. Bus-ed down to tamp. So caught a movie "The Days" it's a nice show [: Derrick R. is real cool i swear, the silent killer hahaha. Took the last bus home reached sk around 12++? Walked home from the usual place that brings back alot of memories. Didn't bothered much even though it hurts to be reminded im alone. Just kept on with my journey home with the starry sky watching over me, with my ear piece on, something's in my hand, i walked. Home at 1. Slept at 3 due to some stuffs.

Sunday

9messages received when i woke up. Once again, sorry to those i didn't reply. Chose who to go out with then prepared, out at plaza around 5 with jul, gi, gf, & waichun. Did my colourings for art. Mingyang & Mengkeat came after waichun went off. They pissed jul off, HAHA! Mengkeat better remember what you said too, 7:39! :D Wento future at 9 met Leroy, saw cute lil Scott, he stiu remembers me ok! Then police came -.- They are friendly anyway, just felt so happy nothing happened to scott, & now we've got police friends HAHA. & what's the meaning with i sure got boyfriend huh?! Lol, when i said just broke off officer answered "Aw, sad" Wth, HAHAHA. Anyway, great times there. Home at 10, & now down here.

Last but not least, kenny do cheerup [:

Okay, byebyebye, i've to do my job now. ^^

♥ -/ I doesn't know why my heart is thumping so fast/hard now despite nothing's going on.

Somehow, i feel sad & tired. Without any reasons.

Am i.. Really.. The third party? The destroyer?

2008-09-18T22:10:00.013+08:00

I'll be out soon, this is so sad. Why the sudden everyone's out. Julian & co including joanna asked me out to kovan. Weian suddenly called & asked where am i going, he said he's bored. Why is everyone calling me out only when i've later plans for the day, ewww ):

Well, stayed for art, i did something good today. A girl from express can't finish her Olvl course work for art in time, she cried while talking to Ngo. So Ngo asked me to help her with it. That means i spent 4hours there not doing much of my work, instead, helped her with the colourings for prep boards. Hope she can pass this tough time with my lil effort* [: Help jasper, too. He's 123456 man! Told kuanyew bout the name thing, argh! He even believed that im the one whom asked kuanyew to call him "Jasper Johns" whom is an artist -.-

Home at 5, approaching 6 now, shall bathe, pack my stuffs and to compass point. Im bored. x.x

& note uoy: My blogsong [missing you] doesn't mean anything. I have it placed here, this time round for the music but not the lyrics, i would appreciate if uoy don't ask again [:

2008-09-18T22:10:00.003+08:00

Pisces: Try not to censor your words or actions. Say what you really think, without worry.

School, home, school for art, night studies, home.

Tomorrow, school, compass, school, home, cousin house.

Finally uh Shirley Quek! :D

Currently searching for Artist reference using my comp, on the other hand, posting on the lapt. Lol, can't help, the comp's quite, slowww. Shall chiong my art the whole day tomorrow. [:

Byebyebye, getting busier. Do miss me peepos! ^^

2008-09-17T22:40:00.004+08:00

Bloody friend, cheerup please, don't be so emo leis :D [don't this sound familiar?]

Ok, home not long ago & my nose just bled like nobody's busniess -.- Was sent home by chinkiat, mengkeat & mingyang [: Isn't this the first time the two ming & meng sent me home, hahaha. Promised them to be out today by skipping night studies & so did it. I kept my promise ok! Well, tomorrow's dawson's turn, so sorry aye, didn't turn up for night studies for 2days despite your calls. Promised him to be there tomorrow [: Have been working on art art & stiu art these days, had an aim for myself, try to finish up everything by this week, so i'll have one plenty week for Geog, Combined Science & Maths. Hope so, pray hard*
Oh & im surprised to see kok weiliang's tag, lol. Failed to meet him up these two days. He wento skuu i was outside doing my art, i was in skuu, he was at home. Shall clear the timing right next time. Alright, stayed back for art after skuu till 5. Like WOW, Rowena actually stayed. Thanks to jasper, lol! & uh Jasper Tan i won't forget what you said. Child name hor, i won't write it here. LOL. & better don't leak any of my “secrets” out if not im gonna kill you man! :D Saw that fashion teacher Edgar told me bout also. Home, bathe then future to meet them, maths, i swear my mood just swayed when i started on maths. Real frustrated by it! Not that i doesn't wanto try, im so sick of it. So many sets of it a day, wtf is this. Lee expect us to finish 2sets by today, he thinks that we're god, he totally forget there is actually art students trying their veh best to rush their course work! Wento plaza at a later time, & i won't forget what Mengkeat nearly said to julian "I love Ro.." I stared at him cause i heard my name, then he faked something nice out, hahaha! Julian don't be sad or jealous, he should love his xiaosau more than you a stranger! :D
Been watching some re-run show on channel 55 till 1am at night. Grow with love [肥田喜事] is a real nice one! Recommend!! ^^ Fat ones like me, don't have to feel inferior to others. Face life up right, things will turn out so fine someday.. This is the 3rd time im watching it but never get bored of it, lol.

He had the courage to do everything.
But not the courage to admit, he loves her.
Quote of the day: Stop living in self-deception

2008-09-16T22:16:00.007+08:00

"Make someone happy" shall let this be my new quote for this month [:
Did my art, all lessons in skuu are so useless now. Except for art & maths. Only pinned some hope on this two. Shall mug a lil harder for Combined Science. Who doesn't wanto pass when they can do it overnight if they work so much more harder?
& damn Leow! _'_ Brought tie to skuu for two weeks, no assembly, this week never bring then combine assembly somemore, got no choice so to stand at the back of the hall. Was real ~@#$% but the view there for something was good, so shall let this matter off ^^
Talked & crapped instead of watching the performance.

Julian Ang, stop brooding so much over it anymore, believe it's not true & it won't come true, like what my grandma said. Stop crying for this anymore, just treat her better & everything will turn out fine.
Melissa Lim, come to skuu soon, it's been one week & more. What's much more important than Nlvl, isn't it? Whatever the matter, work hard for this. You'll make it i believe!
Samantha Chew, stop running away from the fact. Why not just laser it off & live on well in nanchiau? Cause of this, you can't even go up to sec5, isit worth the while? Don't do this kind of thing at the beginning nothing like this will happen alrdy, right?

&&& why is everyone having a tattoo now? 0.0

`You looked like a puffer fish when you're sad.

Can't help but wait/You confront my worst fears

2008-09-15T21:56:00.004+08:00

Ok yo! Im back home.
Where should i start? Hms, im veh happy today, cause i've got an MC for Lee, i handed it to him with a bigbig grin, lol! Anyway, goddy, when is my cough recovering? I doesn't want anymore x-ray!!! >:
Ok, lessons was stiu ok, our Aust trip is on the 15th of Nov! :D It's confirmed i guess? Should be $600 per head including quite a number of things, i swear i'll bring so much cash there man! Hahaha. Then after skuu went opposite to find out what happened. My name is included, but the prob had been solved [: Went home, did my art, ahhh so satisfying ^^
Did everything not in a rush, bathe & out at 6, bus to skuu with xinyi. I drew only one picture for art today, the rest of the time crapping with group ._. Didn't go home straight after night studies, wento some hall with weian, weiliang, elsie, bingcheng, nelly, zs, xinyi & clarence. They played with their soccer while im being entertained by those silly moves bingcheng actually did, lol! I swear he's real funny! Not forgetting, friendly, hahaha! I cannot imagine how afraid i can be when i see him last time. Well well well, i've been on good mood recently, cause of some reasons. What bout mood down? Ya, definitely there will be some times like this. But what can i do? Wouldn't spending these time on maths would be better? I dowan people to say me "acting emo" man. Im sad means im sad, why do i've to result till acting. Im happy means im happy, if you say i act happy stiu can uds, but act emo? HA! Say me sarcastic, childish or whatever you like, what's the causes of all these? Liar~
& i've this strong instinct that i won't get an A for Eng, means nomore 3points, like why..? Ewww. Oh & ya, surprised that Mengkeat called & wanted to look me up with Mingyang & co. Even more surprising. Can't doubt the fact that hubbykor actually misses xiaosau though, right?! :D HAHA. I've the sudden urge to meet Chew cube & Lim pail up! It's been one week & more since they ever came to skuu. What's up man?! They are treating the skuu like hotels, lol! Anyway, one's running away from the fact that she'll get caught eventually, one's sick i guess.
Alright, thanks for bearing with my long-winded monday. Im off to... Shall chat with jul online, kind of miss her as she didn't go for night studies, HAHA! Don't be too proud xiaoli.

♥ Study with book/Love with affair

2008-09-14T04:45:00.010+08:00

Saturday, 13sept08

Yea, it's 4:51am now! Ohman, this is sooo, LATE. Wonderful day out [:

Ok, i shall write down the whole group of pple's name then. Weian, weiliang, zhongsheng, jasper, waichun, dexter, elsie, germaine,bingcheng, roslinda, yahhui, nelly, doreen, mh, chinkiat, zion, williams, jiawei, maoqin, eddie, kok leong, gf, eugene, julian, jul & gi. If i never left anyone out, should be this few. Quite a big group x.x Played at punggol park. Lol, rather fun with these pple. I believe there will be a next time. Goodbye, im off to my sleep people! ^^

Julian: Lol, crazy x.x

Natalie: No prob, thanks [:

Highfashion: Visited [:

Christina: -.-

Elsie: HAHA! Is the 3mighty mushrooms la! :D I will, study hard for your Nlvl uh! [:

2008-09-12T23:19:00.010+08:00

WOW, i didn't know i've been "acting" emo all the while, ha!

Alright, i'll give this para to someone first before i start what went on today.
You.. Ya it's you, call me & ask who am i talking bout, so it's you. Where are you when you said ya friends, we'll be there for each other. Im so surprised by what you can actually say to others in the phone. It's totally different tone from mine, you talked so well in mine. & you totally changed when the caller you're talking to is not me. Do you know this freak me out alot? Im not even bothered by your things please. Im just trying to be a friend to be there as i promised. If you doesn't need me anymore, at the first place please don't even approached me. I'll appreciate it alot. & what's so great bout having face? Don't admit things when it's a fact bodoh, you're only 16 yo lil kid! Like don't ever try to play some games with me like what you did one year ago, thankyou!
No school for Rowena today, the cough for 3weeks forced me to the doctor. &&& weian asked the doctor to postpone my x-ray session to tomorrow cause we were in a rush to bugis. So, took my med & mc & off we flew. Shopped, the first part with them in street was so yucky, then second part with gf & weiliang was a good one. Another skirt & tuby [: Alot of accessories also. Many many things for today but the total amount i spent was surprisingly not much. Ok, so decided to get another television watch which i bought for myself for ahmei. She was shocked i guess, lol. Anyway, im veh glad im on good terms with xg again, like now finally i know why she stared at our group almost everytime. Whatever, but im stiu glad ^^
Met the usuals at night, finally.. Haha, played & crapped. Williams becoming more & more cute + funny. Jiawei stiu the same so stupid with his actions. Maoqin stiu look as foolish with that catty face. Chinkiat stiu so fishy with that chiobu leg. Some others not that close so won't mention. & i totally forgotten tomorrow's the celebration for lantern fest at Rivervale pri. Maoqin reminded me to meet at 3. Everyone, it's everyone. I can see everyone i missed & of course i'll look for Miss Thong! :D Then at night will be the same as last year, candles with friends at future! Xg & peeps will be there i hope. Asked them along alrdy [: I'll sure be late home tomorrow, hehe!
Yesterday's friendly with punggol, they won. 41-31. This is so sad. But anyway, was so surprised to see Mingyang. He lied to me that he's not playing. & ended up saw him in jersey. He played real well i swear, was so impressed by his moves. Told ahmei straight when i reached home at night, haha.
Chosen topic for art: Street Furnitures

Because of your nasty words, i say kcuf you.
Are my words big enough? [:

2008-09-09T22:14:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVE ONG! :D

Big Big World

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much miss u much

2008-09-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

Ok, didn't manage to post yesterday as was rushing to bed around 4am. Celebrated jamie's bday at home, then to plaza for maths, lastly to future for Mingyang. Lol, didn't wanted to go in the first place, but he intiated it as he didn't seen for quite some time. & he told me my features are looking more & more like ahmei's one -.- anyway, FYI, we're sisters, what's so surprising, lol. Then it was raining cats & dogs. Ran back when the rain gets lighter. Today, parkway with mel mel & ony mel. Lol, i swear we're both so happy today, not gonna say why, right mel? :D *Benefit benefit. Bought alot of things today, and a new school bag for like $49.90. This is sucha big bomb! Surprisingly, back to sk by 8. Met gf, talked & crap. Called home, grandma's feeling not so well. So went home at 9, look after her needs. & edition till now. School's reopening tomorrow, this is so sad. We've only got 2days of holiday while others one whole week. So not fair! >.<
Ha, ok anyway, im stiu coughing, it's worser than before.. Luckily my eyes are not as bad as yesterday, this means there will be school for me tomorrow! [: Kind of miss school when there's holiday, omg, what a thing to miss. Well well well, im happy we're ending our Nlvl papers earlier than Amaths student. Ours on 3rd of Oct while theirs on 7th of Oct. Hahaha, don't be jealous oh ^^ Byebyebye im going to meet my prince in my dreamland soon.

Weilin: Relinked [:
Jull: Cute right, haha. You've no chance to carry her! ^^

2008-09-07T01:50:00.001+08:00

06 September 2008, Friday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMIE! ;D

2008-09-05T23:57:00.010+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHONGSHENG! :D

Yep, just reached home not long ago, hopefully abled to rush before 12 to wish zs happy bday (:
Photos will be uploaded later when i got the cable.
Wento met someone then back to compass, bus to east coast, spent almost the whole day there. Hope zs enjoyed his day uh [: Byebye, see you with pictures later.

I feel that i shouldn't be doing this.
Because.
I know i'll end up the same like before.
Don't make my heart stop a beat again.
For you.

12:47
Oh so damnful! Just complaint kept coughing & eyes are so pain ytd, and now? Cough even more harder, my voice became so man ~.~ & my right eye is totally so swollen that i've to put my shades on to cover it up. Argh, nerves nerves nerves!

Thanks [:

2008-09-04T13:22:00.008+08:00

Maybe i've lost you this group of friends. But it's ok. You all have got your rights to choose who you wanto be with. We this group won't be unreasonable anymore. Do whatever you like man.

-/ PISSED >:(

10:57
Thanks. For salvaging the f-ship.
-/ GRINS :D
Anyway, a good para from Tee which gives me hope for getting an A/B in Eng, my compo started off like this..
As i looked at the photograph that had turned brown through the years, an intense feeling of nostalgia exploded within me as i looked back in retrospect. Tears was cascading down like twin streams now as my mind reviewed what had happened...

Wtf, i can't believe im waiting for that call, kill me!
- Im coughing to death & feeling so troubled now.

2008-09-02T23:17:00.018+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEILIANG! :D

Jasper Tan said his face are all so nice, omgomgomg! :D

Had my first Nlvl chinese paper today.
- Goodluck to all the loved ones!
- Goodluck to friends!
- Goodluck to people!
- Goodluck to strangers!
- Goodluck to whole s'pore taking Nlvl!
- Most importantly, goodluck to 4A, B & C! :D

Wednesday
♥ The Lucky Girl Today, Just Today. [:
Im real lucky :D Told friends if source base were to come out Sri Lanka, Essay were to be Good Governance how good that will be, & so yep. The same think i said, bulls eye! Muahahaha.
& when im on my way home, im stucked under a block with the heavy rain. Just when i was thinking whether to run in the rain.. Then a lady came forward, she sent me to my block, that's so kind of her! Told you, im lucky. Just for today. & i got so gaga over those tongue studs i saw today & therefore i've decided.
I wanto...

- Get my tongue pierced again after Nlvl

- Get myself a tattoo for my 18th birhtday

- Find someone ohohoh-so devoted to me

- Get my lip pierced at the age of 18 too

I hoped love is back.

WTFWTFWTF, im going crazy with this hectic love affair x.x

Jasper: MV again mah x.x

Jull: Crazy sia, lol. Stiu thanks for tagging! ._.

Shijun: Sure! I'll teach you maths for sure! :D Haha, ok lah, after Nlvl we got alot of time to tell tales. You going Clarence's chalet? Not even exam finish he asked me alrdy, lol!

Yk: Haha, welcome, goodluck goodluck! [:

Jull: IE IE IE, hahaha! If joanna were to visit your blog, i think you need to pay alot, HAHA.

Jasper: Lol, got leis. But you the more rare one, say ownself what face also nice, LOL!

G: Hahaha, goodluck goodluck goodluck, workhard workhard workhard! ^^

2008-09-01T14:47:00.007+08:00

第一次你陪我坐着
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著
还怕我难过
不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了
至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐
..我..走..了..

HAPPY BIRHTDAY GRANNY! :D

Weian: Lol, deleted liao la.

Natalie: Hahaha, yep television watch :D

Shijunlaopa: Lol, sorry sorry, slept late sure wake late. But stiu make it in time to meet you right? Better come out again, i know stiu got maths need teach you, we gonna tell tales to each other again :D

Weian: Lol, yala the watches she meant. Anyway, thanks for the ride yesterday (:

Jull: Lol, yo pubor, see you so good everytime come tag i tag yours cannot uh, keep it alive for you, hahaha! :D

2008-08-30T01:12:00.007+08:00

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HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
Especially to: Me Larry Lee, Mr Jason Tee, Mdm Angie Ngo

Nyl: Thanks, you are? (:
Jul: Fuck off. LOL! Not sarcastic..
Sharon: Badgirl! You're here?! Miss you too! :D

2008-08-28T15:30:00.012+08:00

♥ Drunken Bitch.

2008-08-27T22:31:00.003+08:00

~~Trust me, i'll give her one tight slap if i know who she is.~~
This is what i get for having commitment in it, right?
"Me is me you is you, now have liao just that im not told" Nice!
Your goodgoodgood friend = CRAP + SHIT
You'll get what you deserve, get your retribution, die die die!
~~It's not even one week to my Nlvls, why can't you be that considerate enough to be considerate for me?! _l_~~

Felt so much better after spitting out my bottled up feelings. Had a one hour long talk with girl downstairs from 9 to 10. We wanted to cry, the anger is too much for it. If she didn't request to talk, i would be crying alone at home. What a dumbass! Im deciding whether to skip night.s tomorrow. I need a one day rest, a one cry day, a one moody day to get my brain cells back. Im stressed up! My Nlvls are round the corner, everything's rushing me down my spine. I don't have that tiny plenty bit of one month to think anymore. Time's rushing me, studies are rushing me, & you, getting me on my nerves. You tend to hit the right nerve everytime, every second, every minute! What's the earth becoming? It's changing from circle to rectangle. What on earth is happening? It's trying to play on me almost everytime. & my electronic dictionary is spoilt, i don't know whato do for my first N paper, i don't wish to waste my money & buy a new one, but everyone's using it for exam, not one's available for me, wtf!! I wanto end everything at one shot, but everything's just too much. Sam suggested martel with greentea, i think this should help a lil. I'll have my plenty good time tomorrow! I wanto laugh & laugh, cry & cry my heart out. I wanto talk crap to everyone. I dowan anyone to understand & know me, i want no one to get to know me! I dowan people to talk me round, are you me? Would you ever understand? Do you even feel the pain im feeling?!
& what bout mommy? She, suck. She don't even understand me, i don't even intend to tell her my Nlvls are round the corner, let's see if she knows bout it. I called her yesterday, telling her i would like for a new phone, she was so sarcastic that i hanged up upon her. What's the point with a mother in name when you're motherless at all? I don't even live with her since young, she don't even care bout me & sister. What she only does is give grandma allowance every month. What she take grandma for? Say nicer, mother, nasty words, Maid. One example of her not playing her part as a mother is when im small, i cried not cause of her, cause grandma is not by my side. Hello, get the facts right now, if you don't love me, don't make me exist in this world from the beginning, you happy i also happy. Now, she has her own family, what is me & sister? Daddy isn't any better. He called days ago [finally], instead of asking how we are, he reprimanded sister saying she've got a lousy phone, can't even receive what he sent. Eh please la, this couple, don't treasure me & meimei don't bother to make love & give birth to us la, what's the big fuck point of giving birth then forsake?! Being a part-time gangster can get you anywhere meh? What you always do is hang out with your friends, talk & drink at coffee shop, do illegal things. Wanto forsake us again by going into jail once more isit? Anyway, we're alrdy used to it with the No-parents lifestyle!

Im veh sorry for the above post, i felt so much like a lil girl when i typed everything out in anger. This is really too much too much. Im just a girl, a 16yr old girl, stress shouldn't have even approached me!

2008-08-25T13:46:00.009+08:00

Yes, im at home right right right now. I didn't go to skuu skuu skuu. I hate this, shouldn't have mentioned im unlucky, now im really unlucky. Im down with fever, cough, flu & full body ache, this explains why i felt so cold for the past 2days, but stiu i'll be back for night classes later.

& i found myself pathetic enough, seriously. When you know somethings happened to someone. You have to stiu hesitate so much whether to give a message, after giving a message you'll be bothered whether the reply comes or not. So the best thing is not to do anything, but acting ignorance is so _l_ miserable.

He's caring so/too much. I said, i dowan history to repeat.

10:28

Back. Night studies was stiu ok. Gf went back with me, lol. Seems like miss pey is the cleverest, only she could tell that gf's not from our skuu. Anyway, had enough of jasper tan & seah kuanyew. Keep on virus virus, i cough also virus, i talk also virus. Lol, at least we stiu spent time talking bout ss & geog. 7more days >:

Lalala, nobody can explain why im in such mood at this hour, but i swear my heart's thumping so hard when im replying x.x what's got unto me man?! & this caused me to cough even more.. Whatever, but. Things wasn't as fine as i thought, the feeling wasn't as strong as before.

Ok, anyway, jasper's complaining to me, i passed my sickness to him. He can feel leg aching also. Hahaha, like kuanyew said, illusion!

2008-08-24T21:44:00.010+08:00

The tan family {:

L.O.V.E {:

I wento airport airport airport.
Supposingly to study study study.
But end up photo photo photo.
Lol, overall was fun (:
At 8, i met Mengkeat Mengkeat Mengkeat! & got to know a "One Day Friend" -.- Whatever, but i knew him when im only p4, not surprising at all, haha. Was chatting all the while, it wasn't that scary afterall. 240808 -.- I dowan history to repeat.
Stupid things keep flashing when i walked home in the rain. & now, great, im down with slight fever. This feeling isn't good at all. & i was informed, we won't be having the one week holiday although it's really a holiday. We'll be having our N's during holiday, wtf is this x.x
Sprained my waist after the run today. Damn, im so unlucky these days! Ahya, & airport is really a good place for photo photo photo {:
It's been raining continuously these days, i don't like rain although i like it at times, lol. Rain is nice, but not when you wanto make a trip out. & all of us are so looking forward to the trip to Aust! :D
Actually decided to write a para for someone, but nvm. I think he's stiu a trustworthy friend, isn't you? Although we're not as close as before, but i know someday you'll look back & reminisce our happy times tgt. It's not that you quarrel with anyone of them i'll be biased & side with whoever. Both sides also friend, why not try getting back tgt again? They agreed with me to be back like the past but why not you? Maybe im writing abit too much, but think this through, "funny finger". [: [You know who you are now]

The love was once strong, i guess.

2008-08-21T23:17:00.006+08:00

Rowena Ng is veh happy today, somehow...
It's a secret. It's the 15th day, stiu the same for me. But i'm ok, this will go on. Clarence Lum know what's going on, hahaha. I'll win the battle one day, right? {:
-Lost the trust in you / Still the love with you

Jaslyn: <3s!
Weiliang: Yep, what goes around comes around. [:
Cheeyen: Baobei! I miss you too la :D Yea, won't be bothered anymore. As long as you're around nothing's gonna be hard to solve!
Julian: Don't be lame la, lol!

2008-08-19T22:23:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUA YAH HUI! :D

2008-08-17T14:15:00.011+08:00

Rowena is a tikko bor!
I shouldn't have agreed to write this here -.- Watched 12 lotus with family & gf at night. It was a nice show just that please cut away some singing parts la, too much of it is not good at all. Wento the gym yesterday, the feeling so damn shiok! After 20mins of quick start with the bicycle, my legs are like breaking anytime, then straight went for 20mins run, after that i floated to jul, gi, ahmei & gf. That feeling is so good, but im like drenched with my sweats. Played around then bathe. While walking to hougang mall, we saw some fireman & police car coming into some blocks. We stopped & see what's going on. Those typical aunties said something happened on the 4th or 5th floor. But we saw nothing -.- But all we goto saw is a real stunning fireman, wtf! & this is how all of us got the name tags "Rowena is a tikko bor, Natalie is a tikko bu, Eugena is a tikko cai, Julian is a tikko ma" HAHAHA. Wento hougang mall, saw leroy, so fagged around together. & the so called Danny, that policeman, without hat, he's.. ~!@#$% LOL! Anyway, home at 10 then movie. Before movie aunt wento coffee shop to eat then all of us witness a dad covered with tattoos with his lil kid, his dad was shouting like his own home. I think his age's only 30+ Young dad. He shouted "You go follow your mommy la, knn, i now want divorce her liao, i tell you clearly, when you grow up better be a paikia uds?!" etcetc.. Wtf kind of things can a dad tell their children, this lil boy's gonna hate his family when he grows up. He'll too hate himself to be born into this family..

[I think spammers nowadays must have hate nc people veh much, or are they from the same skuu. Almost all of my friends are being spammed. Even those whom don't gossip at all got those spams too, get a life please!]
I don't understand why people likes to go around spamming each other nowadays. Onlooker, you where buay geyan then come look for me lor. Nonid stay behind comp talk bad bout me. I know i did nothing wrong & that's it, i don't owe you a living or whatever shit. So what if im affected, at least i've got the guts. You like my bf isit? I got dumped by him you so happy for what. You're a only someone beside us, do you think you know everything, everything that happened between us? No then shut your fucking mouth up. _l_ "look into the mirror please. (:" Want say people then look at yourself in mirror also. Don't kpkb so much here. Maybe also no mirror for you to see. That's why go around asking others to look into the mirror. "stop being a flirt" I don't have the body to flirt so im not afraid of what you said. So what if im fat, but i don't give up, i work hard for what i want. So who're you to crtisize me with those words?! You think by doing this you'll be so sucki? You'll only be one Big Fuck in this world. So please la, do some soul searching before you say others. Spare a thought for others, do you like it if someone made groundless stories bout you?

I just went blog hopping, & i found out that, all couples broke up with the same reasons behind it. Most of the times, the girls ending up more sad, more serious in r/s, cry more, & they felt so hurt when they know the guys can stiu be happily playing after breaking up. They will think if the guys really did loved them? If yes, they knew it was so true at times, then why the girl's feeling so stressed out & heart ached when the guys seems to be like nothing happened at all, they stiu go on with their life. Don't they uds the meaning of love, to have at least some commitments in it. If they don't even love the girls why have it all rolling at the beginning. What's the use of being sucha good, caring, trustworthy & faithful gf when your bf doesn't even appreciate it at all? Isn't it funny for this whole paragraph. Trust me, all girls felt the same when they first broke up with their guys. Most of them agreed with it. Like why be bothered by all these stuffs when the guys don't really care, because the girls loved them dearly. Every word the guys said, the girls remembered it deep down in their heart. But every word the girls said i doubt the guys will stiu bother to keep it in their heart. Guys will ask the girls to hate them after a breakup, what's the point of asking them to hate you when you know they won't/can't. This is funny at times. What's love at this point? It's just some puppies love by the adults. But do they even know they what the girls are thinking? They took it seriously with their heart. Guys took this as an love game. You lose the game if you take it too seriously.
Lol, this is how i feel what the girls felt. Im just having some rantings here. My opinion for girls out there, don't trust love. Never will you trust love again when you're deeply hurt.

Half year & stiu counting...

To onlooker: I've got an idea who you are now. Do we even know each other?! I'll let you choose now, talk nicely or not? Up to you. If you chose not to talk nicely, i won't be bothered either, i'll just fucking ban your ip no. I don't feel much like entertaining people like you!

2008-08-15T16:36:00.003+08:00

Please give comments on these. Im getting one of them but anyway sister said the black with podka stars is nice. I like that too, but no harm having some hearing.
Please & thanks appreciated. {:

Out for night studies after bathe, byebye.

I love Hunks & Hot babes! :D

2008-08-14T16:37:00.017+08:00

Overalls for my papers.
English paper: 60.2/100
Mathematics: 52.5/100
Combined science: 34/100
Chinese: 56.5/100
Combined humanities: 27/100
Art: 61/100

I've got totally no comments for my papers. Eng, surprisingly this much for me. Maths, total disappointment. Science, i did my best. Chinese, the highest was only 60+ so, it doesn't affect me much. Humans, _l_ for geog! Only 9 for this. The whole of section A i was so confident of it & yet! Section B did the wrong question for food, here goes all my marks. Ss, i did my best too. Art, nobody got an A, everyone of us have to buck up on this. L1B2, couldn't be counted -.- Well, if N's also like this, retain lor, drop lor. It's really time for me to mug hard for my studies! After what Ang said, i've got a goal in my life. I've decided for an arts skuu instead of some poly. Accountant was my choice but no more, after thorough thinking, stiu art. So, this means i've to start with my N's paper 2 for art now, monday will be releasing topic alrdy. I thought i could finally rest but no. Everything's running to me, 18 more days. Im gonna concentrate on Eng, Maths, Art & with the aiming of 7points to sec5. If it's 11points & above i can see myself in ITE. Goodbye games, goodbye love, goodbye movies, goodbye fun, hello Mr. Nlvl. After 2months with goodgoodgood grades, i'll say hi to all of the above again! But bye to Mr Nlvl, another additional hello to Mr Olvl. Gosh, this is crazy..
Gonna prepare for night studies now, byebye people {:

9:43
Back. Night study went smoothly. Scored 44/60 for paper just now. Actually wanted to meet gf for dinner at 9. But all was going home, so me too. Hahaha, nothing went wrong when i didn't consume anything for yesterday's dinner & nothing for today at all. Just drink & drink. Green tea pokka is so loved! ~.~ But have been running for toilet every night. Grandma wants me to visit a doc myself soon >: I hate doctors. It's time to watch my diet too. Saw an article somewhere in class, cut it out & it's in my wallet every now & then. Weian said im crazy x.x &&& what's more. An apple for my dinner everyday, this might sound ridiculous, but i simply love the way im living for myself now. Madness, this happens when a girl wants to be slim & pretty {: Don't laugh, this is so true. When you're determined to do something, you'll achieve the results you want. This sentence must have rang a bell to someone, hahaha! I've been blogging long post recently, i love it :D Can be so crap at times, then don't read lor, lol.
/ Julian - I can't predict what will happen. But this sentence goes to you too. If you work hard for something you want, you'll eventually achieve it someday. Be determined to do what you actually wanted. He'll regret for not choosing you when you've turned yourself into a pretty chick. So, stop thinking that much like what you always said. I know how you felt, no matter what your friends say to you now won't help. But, have faith in yourself. Stop decieving yourself & living in agony. Stop acting so strong when you're so fragile. Decide this yourself, you'll live better.

I did missed you these days.
I stiu love you as much as i always do.
I stiu need you by my side giving me warm hugs.
I stiu need your sweetnothings when it really cheers me up.
I want you to be back someday.
I longed for you.
I cry whenever you're reminded.
Please, be back will you?
You/Perhaps/Maybe/When/If - [L]
Give me time to heal, don't be mean.
Eventually, nightmare came true...

Ina - Fall

You told me you were so grateful

I was with you

And I was so faithful

Stood by in all that you said

And all that you did

I loved you

I don't know how to act or what to say

And when you hit the ground

You'll be sorry that I'm not around

You took the dollars

I took the chances

Defended, battled and fought

Cause I thought you really loved me

I don't know where to start or where to stop

2008-08-12T19:26:00.003+08:00

Yoyoyo people, im back!
Must have missed me right?
Stop asking why i closed for that period man! [:

Well well well, nothing much these days, i won't wanto be reminded either. I live well then that's it! Today's quote, "This is life!" Hahaha, thanks uh julian, we learnt something new. Please have somemore cheeky words coming up! I love this man. & im gonna pester my mommy for a new phone soon, this phone's really getting on my nerves ah! I don't like this from the start anyway, lollol. What phone should i pester after her? Hmm, a flip one, i miss my old flip (: But of course not getting back the old one, it's outdated. I wanna get one veh new one, but an empty one will cost mommy $600++ Will she mind? That's for sure! Lol.
&&& night study should be starting from today, but damn Tee, sudden change so we all gotta start from tomorrow. Those who get 50 & below over 80 for eng prelims will have to go [that means the whole class? Prediction when we haven't even got back the paper] I like night classes, haha. & kuanyew cheer up man, there's more room for improvement, i can see he's really down with depression today after getting some papers back. Man, i scored not as well for my maths >: Jasper jasper, don't forget, woodlands! Motivation ahhhhhhh.
N's paper 1 for art's finally over.. Gosh, finally finally.. Everyone's feeling so relieved now. Thanks Ngo for the hard work. & i did something bad today, Ngo came to our rescue after skuu when Lee stayed us back, reason: [partly me] bad bad bad. But i saved them all :D Anyway yesterday was suppose to be a holiday but we actually went back for art from 9 to 5. I can leave at 12, but stayed to help them with their prep. Rowena actually went for art the whole day, unbelievable.
Lalala, & i want a new phone, a psp, more tops & bottoms, cash, straw bags, picnic bag, back pack, transparent bags, shoes, flats, watches, studs & so many many more. I can never get enough of these. N's starting on 2nd of sept. Buck up everyone, starts early, end early, have fun early! & awaiting for Australia on december, ahahaha!
Ohnonono, not forgetting i wento the temple with julian & amanda days ago, i've got myself a good lot. It's says top for studies, success in marraige. It's abit way too early for this though, but my mind's at ease. Nehneh! I wanto go to the temple beside bugis before exam, be safe than sorry. Jasper said too, 70% on yourself, 30% on the god. So we should achieve the 30% easily like this too get a life!

突然忘了爱字怎么写 {:

2008-08-10T00:03:00.014+08:00

2008-08-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

Rowena's a Nuisance.
Tears's the killer.
What a bad day for me, i hope today don't repeats.

I love you.

2008-08-01T22:06:00.011+08:00

Isn't Haruma Miura's just so great? I swear i won't get sick repeating the movie (:

Koizora

This is our beautiful Ang (: [credits: Yina, grabbed from shiyu's blog.]

♥ What's got unto me?

Eng paper today, damn it. Letter writing wrote wrong things, never pay attention lor, serve me right. Paper 2, wasn't that easy at all. Gonna flunk everything for sure! Wento art room at 1205 as it's Miss ang's last day >: Will upload photos maybe when i get the cable. & it's confirmed we the art students will be going to Australia at the end of the year, for bout 1week yea? $500 for the ticket excluding meals & shopping. A large sum man, hope mommy will be willing to pay for everything. Movie today but not prom night, money not enough 2 instead, ratings 4/5. Serangoon garden for dinner, it's a nice place, we'll go back for sure. The huge huge sugarcane with lemon is, pretty nice! 136 home at 10.
If im not wrong, i saw. Someone. At cp going down the mrt escallator today. Let's hope im wrong.
Because of this paticular person, i think alot.
Do you know how envy i can get over you?
Because of you i get jealous.
Because of you i get worried.
Because of you.
Let's hope we don't cross each others life.

2008-07-31T20:58:00.005+08:00

Firstly, let me thank jasper & weian (:
Ok, i had my chinese paper today, paper1 suck hell lot, i don't even know wth the paper's talking bout, so i just hoped to finish it off fast & sleep! I did it. Paper2 stiu ok, able to write quite alot? But whether the answer is correct this will be a problem. After both papers it was really too early for anything, so wento 7-11, finally the white hello panda arrived, then bus to plaza with xinyi & weian, i bought my brush! :D Kind of happy i don't know why, lol. Maybe finally i can start on my wash? Weian came to my house, like a retard, i Alt F4 his anime, hahaha! Where did the anime stopped? "At the kiukiukiu" HAHA! Plaza weian went home, met xinyi to compass then to clarence's house, got abit excited cause im starting on my pieces soon, & yes i started, it's nice i swear. So i played with washing of my pieces the whole afternoon. Had peanut dumpling for dinner with xinyi then home alone. Tomorrow's money not enough 2 with peeps :D Finally! One week & this is the day i can officially get out. But i'll appear so sad on sat & sun. Study study study, science! Suck. Kuanyew's gonna spend his weekend with me for sure, i need a teacher that much please. Hahaha, he's the "smlj"!

Yeah, everyone's going! :D

2008-07-30T17:57:00.007+08:00

♥ Do you know how i felt?

Skuu as normal, Ms Phong & Soh last day alrdy so took photos with them & Ong came back to skuu today, she stiu remember us (: Went for ss remedial after skuu, quite ok. But when changing teacher to Mr ip stiu dare spam. Want talk state your name down, don't talk shit behind the screen. Whether you'rQuek for Geo can't stop but step out of meeting room & went off. 163 back, met chinkiat. Spent my whole afternoon teaching him maths, he's quite good in it though. Decided to go home at 530 or so. & guess i'll be doing my art at home, but, without a brush how am i going to start on it -.- Anyway i don't wish to talk more, the whatever fucking serendipity & wingsoflife what for act different person, obvious same e a guy or a girl, tell me what you fucking want. If not im gonna ban you from my tagboard! _l_

Deception - It won't be true, it won't be true, it won't be true.

Realistic Or Romantic? A Realistic Romantic.
It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!
A Cool Parent Or Not? A Cool One.
You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!
What Rose Represent Your Love? Purple Rose.
For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight.If a relationship is right, you know it from the start. You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them.
What Love Song Are You? Yellow by Coldplay
"Look at the stars,Look how they shine for you,And everything you do,Yeah they were all yellow"You're so in love, it's like a drug.

2008-07-29T17:07:00.004+08:00

Prelim art's really getting on my nerves!
From the time i reached home from skuu till now, im stiu sitting infront of 2comps. One is the lapt of course for me to come online & blogging, the other to search for picts & place them in powerpoint then print it out. 3 full printed papers & thanks bf for the artist if not i won't have the time to sit down & start cracking for my papers. 10sides of it, how do i finish it when i've to study for other subjects too? Whatever it is, im going to start on the first piece which touches the artist reference & why i chose that topic. & yep, i changed my topic from Footwork to Chains. BB (:
Excited: "Prom night" is on my way hopefully :D

9:32
Back :D Gf's house then Amanda's block nearby met chinkiat, hahaha. His mom missed me so much, yea & i promised chinkiat to teach him maths, he must get at least a A2! He's starting to buck up on his studies, that's great when you know your friend has alrdy decided to study hard (: Won't talk more, my art's a success. Shall go off early, bf's not on the net >:

2008-07-28T16:29:00.006+08:00

Kuanyew's hand is being played by me! :D

I seriously don't know what the fuck all the weird name tags want! This makes me wanto remove my tagboard alot. Please, tag, tag with your big name, why hide behind the comp? Im really getting more & more sick of this. Are you all sick in your mind or what?

59.164.100.63
59.164.100.179
61.246.221.179
59.164.101.100
58.182.122.19

Please tell me what the fuck you want! _l_

Im officially sitting with kuanyew! Took back maths class test today, 20/30. Well, expected, lee's comment: "Old Rowena almost back (:" Lol, there's more room for improvement. & it's real fun with kuanyew around, he never fails to make me laugh like mad. But so sad, he got 23 for maths stiu need sit on floor, cause he didn't improve compare to previous paper. I'll let some edited photos do the rest of the talking here.
I can't believe i saw someone on the way to plaza with xinyi!
Person: I know you! --- Byebye
Me: *Grin* :D --- Byebye
& Rowena gets so high~

{edited}
8:33
Im back! :D After 10rounds of run, 2rounds of brisk walking, climbing up of flights of stairs, i felt.. Deadbeat. Lol, but feeling better after bathe. Well, xinyi don't worry. I believe your one day will come. Mine has got the heart to call when im waiting, yours will too someday B)
Prom night & Dark knight soon please >:

Darling, remember the moment, we stared up the sky the same time.
With that beautiful sky of love.
Im hoping to see jet stream another time, ily (:

2008-07-27T16:48:00.006+08:00

What a Sunday i've got. Whole day at home, shouldn't have said no to pulau ubin trip with cousins. I hope the other half of my day will be more fulfilling. Maybe look chinkiat up? Just had my dinner-maggie mee. Felt so pathetic over myself for this wonderful sunday. & what's more, im strapped for cash! I saved so hard for things i wanted to get, not one succeeded. Well, im gonna take out $30 from my allowance of $50 this coming week. $4 for one day should be enough i hope, that means straight home everyday after skuu. This should be the only way to help me. Guess gfs will be so shock to know that rowena is empty in the pocket, lol. Ok im gonna bathe now, give chinkiat a call & decide whato do later.
Cause of death: Boredom

I missed you at that moment you called,
How i wished i get to see you today.
嘴硬心软

2008-07-26T22:05:00.008+08:00

Rowena Ng Yan Lin-Pisces: Imaginative & Sensitive!
Alot of why appeared [?][?][?]

Seah kuan yew better watch out on monday im gonna kill you! :D

Yesterday was steamboat at clarence's house, the wonderful corn soup again! Thanks to his mom, we got to enjoy everything nicely. Today's mock for ss & geo. Ss Q1 25marks, managed to write a 2pages full essay, while Q2 thanks to julian, i wanted her to teach Good governance ytd but she ignored, nvm i know what you meant. So i only wrote not more than half page for my 2nd question. Well done, another 25marks are flying away when i felt so helpless. Geog nonid to say, finished up the questions i know how to attempt to, one page almost full written with answers, who knows whether it's correct or not, however i tried my best. Wento green at a later time for k at kent mom's place. Jasper asked why i exam that time can sleep. Lool, ya my geog, i only spent bout not more than half an hour to fill one page up & slept for 1hour ++ It's good that i dropped the idea of running away from geog paper. Wento look for chinkiat & co at night, he really never fail to cheer me & gf up. He's a faithful friend man! If not for him Maoqin would have got the case with him alrdy. Hope nothing's really gonna happen to him (: If not for my bad mood today, i wouldn't be at home this time.

Saw this somewhere, could be true at times.
A kiss on the forehead: I've been missing you.
A kiss on the cheek: I shall forgive you.
A kiss on the nose: Oh so sweet.
A kiss on the mouth: I love you.

Im not that small girl anymore.

If i never made that trip, i wouldn't have seen you.

2008-07-24T20:21:00.006+08:00

Thanks to Jasper, Weian & Shiyu.

Chinese N's Oral was quite a easy one. Ended at 3, went up for maths remedial. I've got back my Mock papers for maths. i swear there's the so-called satisfaction deep in my heart.
Paper 1: 73/80
Paper 2: 46/60
Overall: 85/100
It's the great A1 im asking for. Lee must be happy too, that's what he asked from me. I reached home at 730 was informed tomorrow will lee will be conducting another class test, again! Well, i get so sick of maths at times, the cause of it must be lee. Anyway, im awaiting for tomorrow to come, i wanto go to clarence's house for his mom's wonderful corn soup, what i've been waiting for weeks. I don't care who's going, but im sure i'll be going (:
Im so bored now, Jasper actually passed his maths papers, that's great! Gonna go do my 2007 TYS maths paper, last set of it. Fast. & of course rush my art. Im really so stressed up these days. Nothing's gonna bother me unless it's art & maths. Byebye.

♥-Please be there, promise me.

2008-07-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

1. The person who last tag you is: Eve
2. Your relationship with him/her is: Close friend?
3. Your five impression of him/her: Nice, funny, crap alot, cheerful & never fails to make me laugh
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Nothing
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: That she'll rmb me
6. If he/she become your lover, you will: Lol, we both females
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: Nil
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: Wonder why
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: When she forgets bout me
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is: Look her up
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: Funny crapper
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: No idea
13. The characters you love of yourself are: Easy going, treat you like how you treat me
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: Sensitive & cry alot
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: Just to be flawless?
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thanks! (:
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
1) Julian
2) Eugena
3) Weiliang
4) Weian
5) Xinyi
6) Yina
7) Jasper
8) Kent
9) Samantha
10) Natalie
18. Who is no.6 having relationship with? Obvious her bf
19. Is no.9 a male or female? Female
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? This will be quite impossible
22. What is no.2 studying about? N's
23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? Today
24. What kind of music band does no.8 like? No idea
25. Does no.1 have any siblings? Yep, all mad ones
26. Will you woo no.3? Nope
27. How about no.7? Lol but no
28. Is no.4 single? No
29. What is the surname of no.5? Tan
30. What 's the hobby of no.4? Crap
31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? Yea?
32. Where is no.2 studying at? Nan Chiau High
33. Talk something casually about no.1: She's a, retard
34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? HAHA
35. Where does no.9 live at? Yishun
36. What colour does no.4 like? Red
37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend? Yes
41. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? He could be one if he wants to
42. What is no.10 doing now? Studying?

- Clarence's house
- Green for dinner
- Chinkiat & gf
- Weiliang
- Home
It's getting late after survey shall go to bed soon.
Get well soon darling (:

2008-07-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

Regrets.. I didn't know, you loved me.

2008-07-20T16:52:00.003+08:00

At that very minute, i felt so..
Useless.

- Why?

10:04
Plaza, cab to Ehub with jul, she got her havaianas & another one for someone too. Cab to clarence's house with jul & gi. Surfed the net for quite some time there, shuffles are cool. Mahjong then something cropped up. Didn't feel like speaking a single word, even one word will makes me real sick, tired & pissed. So well, weiliang, weian & zs came. Decided to go off at 8, chinkiat called, so 119 to future. Chinkiat did cheer me up. Whatever, went home at 9++. Some M.F withheld called, _l_
My weekend just ended, like this.

2008-07-16T21:43:00.002+08:00

Yes so what if im with him, mock at him?! Ya, i should listen to him, come ask again, i can give a fierce one. Comeon, has our relationship got a problem with you all? Why bother so much. Want know anything come ask me, i'll say it out once & for all. No offence but does our blog even looked like couple's blog? I don't see any wrong. Well, since he admits it why should i deny any further.
Skuu uni the whole day just reached home not long ago. Don't bother to say where i went, but my mood's low in the morning, high in the afternoon. All thanks to him (: He's sucha cute one. Don't worry, weian won't do anything & i won't forsake you when i changed man!

You're much more than wonderful. (:

2008-07-15T22:36:00.004+08:00

You're my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey, you never know dear how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away.

1. School
2. Compass & house
3. Eugene's house
4. Future
5. Home at 1010

I admit im totally so so shy today >.< & im wondering why you would said that to me. Im tolerating so? Because of you, you know. I will definitely stop. I've come this far, what for turn back? Don't come near me will make me so sad, i'll rather i didn't do it & you'll stiu be sticking to me by my side. Why not, give me some time, i promise, i'll stop completely. I'll hate it the same way like how you dislike it too some day, trust me.

♥ Rowena's so so shy day.
But im lovin' it, because of you :D

2008-07-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

Think of you, think of you & stiu think of you. ~.~

I don't deny im shy, i'll get my whole face so reddish so suddenly.

I love you, i love you & stiu i love you.

I don't admit i love you so much because, im shy.

Chem & physics mock exam in the morning. Gonna flunk chem for sure, i thought it'll be easier than phy, but no. Slept for 40mins, alot of blanks >: Follow by, home, kent's house, clarence's house, home again by 1140.

Promise me, your love will stay like this forever. (:

2008-07-12T00:07:00.002+08:00

I've to change, for faith & trust, ily. Aw, erm. A lil not like me to say such things.
Went for a movie today [10 promises to my dog]. Quite a nice show, somehow my tears were hanging hard at the edge of my eyes. But i didn't let it out, he'll laugh at me for sure, hahaha. But that's not the reason for not crying -.- lol. Actually wanted to give a visit to future for the sake of chinkiat, but was sent home & not allowed to go, well.. Be a good girl & heed his advice of course. He left at my doorstep. I should be happy with what i have now after 4mths of everything. While both my gf is stiu struggling hard, im happy for jul today, happy for xinyi too. I hope this girls live well with my love stiu pouring at them (: Jul gets what i mean, don't thank me, you have to do something to achieve something you want isn't it? You're happy & i'll be glad too! Ok, i must go to bed soon, he's asking & asking me to go to bed now. Well well, byebye :D

I miss your kisses.

2008-07-11T08:01:00.012+08:00

Im Yours - Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

Ah, la peaceful melodys

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasonsIt's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more

This cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

2008-07-07T13:36:00.002+08:00

Lalala, im so happy now. It's been some time since i officially met gf for homework. We'll be doing our homework tgt outside (:
It's been sometime since i last blogged, readers must have missed me yea? Ohgod it's abit thick skinned but do satisfy me ok. Well, im too lazy to type here what happened recently, i won't bother to say either. A recent phrase learnt, 不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有. Ya so you see, that will be enough. Gfs told me something weird that happened only recently, but i didn't care lest i pin hope on it. So now im here living happily as the cheerful pie as before isn't it. What are guys? If im a nutshell, that will make them a hypocrite.
Nah nah nah, stop this thing, im going off to my bathroom then to gf. I hope we're heading future. & gf told me she saw the couple below her block. Well ok. What's so surprising bout that. Blahblah, byebye (:

Sorry for all the links & relinks. I promise to do that soon. (:

2008-07-06T12:51:00.001+08:00

Choked to death by your love.

Mood: Bored bored bored
Song: Yan lei zhi dao
Person: Julian Ang

2008-07-03T22:08:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Eugena! :D

2008-06-30T23:45:00.005+08:00

Yesterday's shopping at ps. Today's day spent at future.

Yesterday's culprit whom caused me to used up $44, kok weiliang.

Today's culprit whom caused me to used up $2 for another strap, natalie goh.

Lol, it's kind of late im going to bed soon. But before that i posted photos (: GUESS's shades. Kent's favourite i guess, HAHA. My N lvl eng oral is on thursday & im the last to go, can you imagine that. But fine at least im in the same batch as my friends. Goodnight pple :D

Why are good friends so hard to come by? You'll tend to make mistakes. Neglect this & that, however, i wouldn't be bothered by this, as i know who are my forever companions im contented. Regarding who to trust, i know where's my stand & i won't fall. Because i know who truely loves me & who's not. I won't name out pple whom i seriously treasure, they know who they are. But if you choose to hurt me, so be it. I don't give a damn (:

He made his ground clear to me on the 29th. Officially F-breaker. Well, not a hot topic at all.

Forever not staying in love.

2008-06-29T01:10:00.010+08:00

Dao Dai - Jolin Tsai

Song of the day (:

Skuu for some events. Dedication of the day -.-
From: Black guy from 4b
To: Hao pengyou
Hao pengyou, faster tgt bah.
From: Black guy from 4b
To: Xiao K & da R
Happy steady pompipi la.
From: Baka
To: Baka
Steady bompipi.

Sort of fun cause there's Sudoku (: We slacked in skuu, so lame, lol. After the dedication we wento compass, home, slept, clarence's house, green for dinner, future, home at 12. Today's mood quite random. & ya im back again, i've to apologise to kent, because i forgotten to post bout the letter he gave me today, in it is 4 different so called mediums of my name. I prefer the pencil & orange one. Somehow some said purple some said green. Everything's an option. I can't deny it's nice for a guy to decorate something like this. (: His drawings are cute too, lol. Just had a chat with jmh, hahaha, suddenly felt so great talking to him. We'll be going to ps for some shopping, he told me he actually shops, HAHA! So great, tomorrow's plan is done. Finally, i was stiu worrying bout tomorrow's boring event. Seems like it's settled now. BB :D
Sometimes, avoiding can be part of the solution too.
I felt so sour for a moment.

2008-06-28T01:10:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Cheeyen Baobei :D

Im so sorry bout what i did today, i promised not to to this again. This feeling is so damn bad ):

2008-06-26T19:58:00.003+08:00

Grandma woke us up late today, at 630. I was worrying whether should i bathe, & yet i did everything within 15mins, that's quite surprising. Even drying my hair is also part of it. Rushed down to meet the girls, then off to skuu, thought i'll be late but no. Im lucky. Lessons for today was fine, just that ss suck! & went for maths remedial today, it's like peanuts for me & gi. Not i wanto show this off or what, but seriously, it's a waste of my time. We started off at 145 me gi & sean finished at 210 & the others have yet to start the paper yet. Anyway, me & gi went down to canteen halfway to let the time pass fast. Taught mel & yina & we can go, so wento eat then to art. My cubes are finally finished! So satisfying (: Gonna go back for more tomorrow. But i wished i can go out cause it's a friday, friday is always a go-out day for me. Ask me out, i won't turn up for art for sure! =x Im serious, lol. N's coming, coming coming. & something happened at the staircase today, SOMEone from SOME class stared at gi, then she told me, we looked back tgt, THAT person didn't even dare to look at us, ha. Wanted to walk home with wl after art cause forgotten to bring my card out, but have to wait for him & i wasn't feeling well so left by the front gate. A 40mins walk alone home was fine afterall. I don't have to entertain anyone, just with my thoughts i kept on going, after 4traffic lights & paths passed im home. Unpacked my stuffs went down to get things alone, & nearly vomit on my way back. I was hesitating to let it out or not, zzz. With no tissue on me, i decided to sit down & calm myself down before my journey home. & now im here comping, im stiu left with 2letter writing & 1compo left. Not gonna do my letter writing, didn't bring my book back. Will finish up my compo later. Should i do the topic 1. End with the sentence "As i saw the bus leave. i felt a great sense of relief." in your story. Or 2. One or more things which makes you angry.
Anyway, i'll be off to editing his photo & my homework soon. Bye.

I love you ~~no more~~
A period of silence, keeps me wondering..

2008-06-25T15:58:00.005+08:00

Im in.. For a terrible mood now. I don't uds & don't know why.
Perhaps, maybe, whatever? What should i be doing at this point of time. I don't uds why i skipped remedials, for friends, or for the sake of compass, eventually i went home by cab. My mood was at first :D but it goes --------- Anyway im home & trying to complete my eng compo. 4more to go, buckup! I seriously have the urge to go to compass & get the things i need, kind of important, is pens counted as important too? Well, whatever it is, i must try my best to bring my legs to compass alone tonight! Regardless of anything, i'll find excuses for myself to get out. This is really killing me.

I was hoping a text would come, & yes. After all my pondings, the text came unexpectedly. & you must know, you mean so much to me now, i swear i was grinning in my heart when i received it. You must put the faith in me, let me trust you & have my hopes on you. [this is so impossible, but. Im stiu pinning some hope on it.]
What's got unto me? Im thinking too much again! I won't wanto have any commitment in these things. However, i stiu did. & i promised myself, once silly but never again.

10:52
Out to compass not alone but with gf, kent & sam. Popular, action city then lrt. Future to meet the guys. A total disappointment in chinkiat, well everything's gonna be alright. I hope he know what he's doing also! Thanks erm steady? For the rubbish talk. Quite true though. He can go for his biking again, lool. Everything's fine after the BIG rain. Nothing's gonna beat me down no matter what (: Home at 1030, chat with gf for a real long time downstairs, we know what we're doing then so be it, why bother.

2008-06-24T20:12:00.001+08:00

Yesterday's movie with everyone at ehub in skuu uni. & i've forgotten the show's name. & i doesn't even know who got hold of the tickets, i didn't get mine. Home at 840 yesterday night. Stayed in skuu for the whole day, rushing my art, picked up something today, good progress for my final. Ngo said we've gotta stay back for 2weeks to finish up our finals, bloody hell! This is so shitty. & im home at 630, walked home with xinyi, talked again, as usual (: Home, bathe, & here with loads of homework, the outcome of not doing any homework during holidays, 4weeks just flew off liddat. I wished we have longer holidays, the skuu's so stingy. Whatever, & i don't what happened to me today, i think alot when im sitting down, someone said my face's BLACK when im ponding on things uh! Lol. & im not blogging any further, my homework are rushing me to my butt. I wished i have dinner, but no. No one's at home, i doesn't wanto waste time going down using my own sweet time to buy dinner for myself, sucha waste of time, i'll rather stay home & finish up more of my undone things. & ya, passerbys please do state your name down if you wanna know anything. No harm.

If i ain't got you.

2008-06-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

Skuu's coming so near me. Talking of it makes me sick! )= This is so bored. Packed my stuff alrdy, stiu considering whether to bring my canvas & boards to skuu not. My homework are yet to be done. What should i do man?
Wento future will just say those closer friend's name out. Chinkiat, maoqin, zion,leroy, jul, kent, natalie & gi went there too. Kent was playing with bike all the way? Me doing nothing, jul & co playing with gf's dog. Wento eat at plaza then back to future again. Went off bout 9+ Acc kent waited for bus then send gf home lol. Home at 10. Gonna sleep early tonight (:

2008-06-21T23:49:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday to Yukang & Shiyu! :D

Sorry but this post will consists of alot of can't seems to
Im so sad, i can't seem to log unto msn using my comp. Only laptop helps now. My bloody sister is using it, so i've to result in using our comp, so shag.
Lied down at 2 yesterday night but can't seems to get into sleep until 4. Woke up at 645 & only manage to go back to bed only at 8. Wth is going on. >: Was waiting for kent the whole morning, but he overslept ._. Went out at 2 to meet jul to clar's house. Kent came afterwards. They had their mj while i focus on my homework, can't seems to really finish everything up. Kent went off at 7 for dinner at grandpa house, we wento green for dinner. Ate & future with kent, jul & gi. Alot was there, some not the least familiar faces. Watched how they play, as usual the police guy was real cool at playing, but i agree with kent, chinkiat's greater. (: Stayed till 10++ then to plaza, chinkiat leroy & kent ate at kfc. I was pulling a face all the way, Leroy tan touched my wallet without my permission & took my photo away! Damn! Eventually he returned me when i was going off, my bird face do helped. Waited for bus with kent, after he went off, reached home at 1130. Im here cracking my brain what i should do with the stupid msn system. Spoilt my mood totally! I gonna try hard to get out early tomorrow again! I doesn't really wanto have a look at my mom's face. She didn't came today, great. So should be tomorrow, SO SAD!
I can't seems to forget everything.
I can't seems to let everything go.
I can't seems to just be friends.
I can't seems to get over such simple things.
I can't seems to find any reason to go on.
I can't seems to stop.
I can't seems to go.
I can't seems to really really really can't seems to..
It's so much to be continued.

No one
Through the days and nights

I dont worry cause

Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking

They can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down

And my heart is hurting

You will always be around

This I know for certain

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I dont worry cause

Everythings gonna be alright

People keep talking

They can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

You you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world

To find something like what we have

I know people will try

Try to divide

Something so real

So till the end of time

Im telling you that

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you

Oh oh oh....

2008-06-20T17:38:00.006+08:00

This could be a long post, depends if i spill everything out clearly (:

18th, Day 1: Waited for kent at bus stop with sam. Tought will be taking bus there, but his dad drove him there & asked us to go up for a ride there, reached bout 3plus i think? Then it's getting bored, me kent sam & gi all lied on the bed for tv, jul & xinyi came played card all these, then gi's fatty bought alot of things up. I think he print cash, bought those things & stiu gave gi $50. Ok then chinkiat they all came, alot of them la.. Then the guys actually psp-ed for the whole night, i hate it when they do this, they ignore everything you say.. Wento whitesand at in the middle of the night the guys ride there while me xinyi & clarence walked there, walked halfway 3of us sat down at the side of the road. Weian, kent, weiliang came back with liquor, i think the first to say stupid thing is Tan kent. He just couldn't shut his mouth up which i think is real scary. He even asked weian to go down with the bike down the flight of stairs. Damn him. We went back to room forgotten for what, then asked everyone whom wants to go for sun rise to go with us to pasir ris park. Was holding on to kent for half the day, like real scared anything would happen to him. He doesn't even walk properly -.- The next to be talking nonsense is kok weiliang, stiu ask kent to play with him. Kent sing the marching song while weiliang told weian don't bother him, cause he said he wanted to march -.- then he actually marched at the track where pple run. We sat down at some place but didn't manage to capture the sunrise ): So sad. Then my ears playing on me. Cause one side's gi's phone music, one side's kent's singing. Went back to room, our turn to change shift with chinkiat & co for sleeping session. & i didn't know when i became kent's steady & was ordered to lie beside him ._. I actually slept soundly until kent's nowhere to be seen, i was being interrupt when i saw weiliang beside me, anyhow hug & hug. Then he suddenly wake me up again, placed his hand under my head. -.- Then when i woke up, became leroy beside me. z, wth. Kent, what a good steady uh, lool.

19th, Day 2: Well, didn't wanted to go to escape theme park, but too bad what i promised kent when he wasn't in good state he stiu remember. -.- So they ate & went in with free tickets, sean & jul came along. First went for some round thing that goes turning & turning, sat with kent, then weian beside us. Then to huanted house? Was actually standing behind then i said im afraid then weian asked me to stand behind him, then kent wanted to stand behind me then sam wanted to stand with me so i asked her to stand behind weian then follow by me & kent, & i've no idea who's behind.. We were shouting all the way, i pulling sam's hand while kent holding me tight, i know he's not afraid at all, & he shouted to prank me, cause im shouting like a madwoman

11:44
Ok im back, cut short the post cause im rushing out just now. Shall continue here.
It's real fun at the chalet these days. Lol the funny part was when kent smashed the cake on my face well i was holding on to his psp! Threatened him & this cause him to present his face to me for me to smashed everything nicely on his face, sorry la steady, but i really mean it, HAHAHA! Ok, for the real war, i passed things to second person, kent used the base for the cake to smashed around my whole head! I don't remember who's the bastard whom came behind me & join in! Then gi's uncle real funny, he told me & kent calm down he took a plate with cake on it, he said ok i put middle see you both who snatched first but before we actually snatch it, gi came from behind & took it away, lool! Then that pubor samantha! So dirty after being smashed, came to hug me from behind, damn! & we started everything cause of revenge, hahaha! & all of us seriously reek of cake & butter smell. Joanna & co was lucky i told them to back off when we're having war, they stood aside watching all of us. & the wonderful part, when i stood there alone to clean up abit, my left year comes "Nabeh cb" My right ear comes "knn" LOL! At first all of us, wha so polite hi auntie & uncle then war shout this & that, funny! Gi's mommy aimed at jiawei, & her uncle aimed at weian with the big big tub of beehoon, HAHA! Then kent veh funny stiu asked weian "Eh? Why beehoon also come out?" Lol! Then before this we actually played "Dare" Jul's punishment was real funny! She was asked to shout "Hello everybody, does anyone want my number?" Holding 2 tissue on her hand shaking like some mother fucker. Then don't know who said her want act one cinderella, lol! Eugene was pathetic, he wasd being stacked with all the guys on top, i can't post pictures ): If not there will be so many things to express out through those picts. While it was my turn i was asked to go down & knock on anyone's door to borrow a phone then said all the lines that they asked me to say like.. "Mommy where are you, i lost my way home, can you come & fetch me?" Wth, so stupid, haha! Real fun real fun real real fun! :D It was a real memorable day, i really wished that moment could just stop like this!

Ok just now rushed to compass met wl & kent to clar house for mj -.- Surprised i can go out uh. Cause one of grandma line ytd when reprimanding me was "You'll dream on to go out again" Whatever, & i doesn't wanto have a look at my mom tomorrow, so decided to go out bout 11plus to clar house, great! So sick of her. Then we mj-ed till 10plus they maple, while as usual being played on by kent -.- & i saw the big big soft toy i hug it & said it's my bf, tan kent actually said i make a cuckold of him. Lol! the same things goes when jul told kent im pregnant -.- & kent became good friends with gi's bro. He told him im his gf. Then his bro asked me whether GM shinji have psp not i ask why ask me he said cause im his laopuo, thanks to kent! Lol, naive child. Everything was real fun, nothing can express this kind of feeling. & jul messaged me on my way home just now, she told me she missed ck & co so much. She wants a next time for sure! She must have missed chinkiat cause he named her chiobu, HAHA! & she've decided to maybe have a bbq pit on her bday so everyone will be present again! (: Lalala im feeling so happy right now, a mention of everything just bring my mood up! Have maggie for the whole day so im here now having ahyi's beehoon of love, haha! Bye im off to my televison.

Hahaha, im so bored >: lol. Shall spit somemore nonsense here. It's alrdy 1:32 yet im stiu enjoying my tv. Just had a chat with kent, ok er. So called steady, blahblahblah. Lol. -.- Will be meeting him early tomorrow for his hair cut. Thought he's going with mom yet alone, so.. & that heartless one want me to go to clar house myself after his hair cut & he go home to bathe. I said him, he told me he's shy & afraid i'll peek at him if i go with him. Wth, so dumb. Lol. Ok, see whatever that happens tomorrow. I'd better go to bed now, god bless i wake up early tomorrow, i seriously dowan to see her face. Goodnight (:

2008-06-18T01:07:00.002+08:00

A great day out with family to east coast. Weian & Clarence came, they looked real funny, mommy made fun of them ._.
Won't be posting in days to come, mommy allowed me of staying at gi's chalet! But so sad, she's going to zoo tomorrow, im stiu deciding whether should i go with them then to chalet or straight home then chalet.. Oh, damn. & i love chinkiat, i seriously love him so much. Don't ask why nor doubt his doting on me. Cause he really meant it. I LOVE CHAN CHINKIAT :D He must be proud to see this, haha!
Lately been fucking fedup for something. If you think im talking bout you then be it. No time for us just say no time. Not even once spare one whole real day for us. Wtf. Message dowan reply don't reply, don't say busy. If really cried say really cry don't say wanted to cry but never cry. Whatever the fuck is it, just forget bout everything. You're the one whom made me lose faith in you, not trusting you, don't blame anyone. When i needed someone, you would never be the first so stop all the crap.
Well, im sure gi's chalet will be a great one, i've my reasons for it. Ask me ask me? I sure say why :D No big deal. Lastly thanks mom, & i'll be off to bed, oral tomorrow >: Damn mariati sick sick sick, now we postpone till chalet day. Slot at 8, argh!

2008-06-16T23:42:00.008+08:00

The never ending group of us :D

The right photo's all the guys.

Maoqin, Me, Jiawei. & the girls on the right.

Jiawei the bday boy & me. This is natalie's new dog, 2month old :D

Maoqin, zion.

Jiawei's cute i didn't know he was waiting for his hair to dry just for nicer photo with me :D

Williams & Eugene, sucha gay. Gi & me (:

Chinkiat, Yukang.

Jiawei, Williams.

Eugene Julian. Funny couple of the day :D

Williams, gf.

Hahaha, fun day out with alot of them. Won't write much let the pictures do most of the talking (:

A day i'll never forget, when i was leaving i felt so sad.. Didn't wanto part with them at all. Eugene gave a hug (: Thanks for everything today, & thanks williams for telling me something which made me real happy. Then 3angmohs walked pass, i didn't know why i shouted & say all the hihi yoyo. They hi & yo back i said they were all awesome, handsome, charming! They said oh See how hyper i can be at night. Even gf also said i abit sot. & so sad, i've art tomorrow, it's like starts at 8, meeting wl 745 then walk to skuu loh. Gonna leave earlier no matter what, till 5 leis. Gotta rush down to east coast alone after that >: In PE somemore, zz. Whatever, gtg, bye (:

2008-06-15T01:00:00.003+08:00

Well, im back home. Decided to not continue from the previous post as it's.. Fathers' Day!
Happy fathers' day daddy! :D
He's been a great father to me, be it kin one or step one. I wished both of them a happy fathers day alrdy. Hahaha! Who would be more blessed than me to have 2fathers? I should be proud of it. But, i should be calling 3daddys today, god-daddy's dead, come to think of it, i miss him >: Ok, can he use the internet up there? Happy fathers day papa! :D Think positively & i'll be as a happy lil pie (:
Ok, was actually doing my art halfway when grandma called home to ask if i wanto accompany the adults for praying session, cause she remembered me saying im real lucky that day. So agreed to go with her changed & down at 10, aunt drove us to loyang, prayed & crapped. Then they decided to go changi for food. So ya just reached home not long ago. & that damn place's so oily & full of malays. I saw hunk i saw hunk, i really saw some hunk. But i'll keep quiet, cause im so shy at then. Hahaha, don't belittle me, i can be shy too ~.~
Anyway, good news, leroy appraoched me back? Seriously i lost my phone i can't remember everyone's phone number, but he's blaming me hard now for not remembering he's. He also said i've totally forgotten botu him. But isn't it the other way round? -.- Like ok, i apologised? Then he said no use, he's going aside for some emo-ing period. Then i actually said the fact, to not emo cause of me save it for other girls, & there he goes, reprimanding me again ._. What's the big deal, zzz. Ohya, & he asked me for bbq with zion they all on monday, i didn't wanto go cause i'll be having my prelims oral & he insisted after that, ok i only said i'll think bout it. I think it's for jiawei's bday or something? Lol.
Ok, i've gtg. Have the sudden feel of editing each & every photo i have now. But im so lazy, HA-HA. BYE.

I'm just a box of tissue to you.
Use & throw, use & throw...

1:26
Mommy came today, whole afternoon packing my storeroom, alot of stuffs found. Hahaha, i've been jonathan lim's secret admirer for 4years. Wrote stupid things to him when i was in p4. Real funny, he even know i cried for him, lol! & found something precious. Rhys ngo drew a piglet for me when he came over to stay for the night when we were small. That's something real sweet, kept it in some safe place alrdy :D Messaged him & told him bout it, he said he remember it & wants me to show it to him when we meets. Hahaha, 26392654 (:
Met the guys for dinner, steamboat at boonkeng. Well, something actually happened in the mrt, but nobody knows bout it, could be something good? Ok, i won't blame anyone. It's my fault. Back home at 12. Sister & me was crapping bout those songs previewed on tv. I think i started the crap, lol.

Ok, my rantings shall start here, i hope it's a short one.
I know, i know i don't have a good figure, but i don't want it. I don' t wish for it either. Pple tried to console me saying no la you're not no no no. But i know everything myself clearly. I tried, but to no avail. I wanto be a beauty too, so the one i love could really love me. It's good for health too. But why? God have it's own reason for having me looking this way. Like fuck! I don't even believe in god anymore, what i've prayed before never comes true! True friends don't lie i understand. But.. I can't lie to myself either. I worked on it, i worked real hard on it. Any use? NO! Granny always console me when she saw me crying alone in the room. She'll say a guy love you, he'll love your everything, but not your appearance, you're not ugly at all, why be worried? Studies are so important now, why not concentrate? I know i really know. I just feel so unfair some girls can get good figures without doing anything, while me? Working so hard for it. What's the outcome? Being a laughing stock of others! Do i even owe you guys a thing? Or i did you wrong in my previous life? Fuck! Im not doing all these for myself, im fucking doing all these for a guy, a guy! But does he even care? Shit!
Im real sorry for getting so emotional here, i just couldn't control myself. I need some place to at least spit my words out. Ok, just ignore everything, i guess i stiu have to move on no matter what it is, no point saying so much..

2008-06-14T16:59:00.005+08:00

Im actually blogging at this time, this actually shows that im real bored.
Ok, im not going out unless anyone ask for it, gonna do my at at home yea. & NBCB, im damn fedup bout some girls, knn come my friendster kpkb, i help uncle tan's mother got wrong leis. Kena fuck before want kpkb so much, say i kena fuck by him that's why im helping him. Think everyone's like her want tell everyone she got fucked! Slut!
Slept at 5 yesterday, but actually woke up at 4, great, no disruption during my sleep, if not im gonna kill. But received 5messages, im real dumb, actually deleted after reading in the morning, totally forgotten who'd actually messaged me. Damn, lol. Whatever, im feeling real pissed off now. I swear i won't help & being that kind again. Im being scolded like nobody's business, why should i bother to even help out again?! FUCK THAT SLUT! _l_

Your Birthdate: March 19

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.
You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!
You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

2008-06-13T23:27:00.006+08:00

Woken up by Tan kent at 1040! Thanks to ong weian. But anyway i went back to sleep, woke up at 1230 cause they changed the timing of meeting at weians house. But stiu late cause forgotten to bring bus card out when 88 comes -.- so went back home with gf to take it then off to H.point look for them shopped while they were eating, then 854 + 196 to east coast. Arcade first then cycle with gf & gi. The guys decided to walk. On our way gi's bike chain dropped off. But behind us was 2guys whom just finished fixing theirs. So i approached the cutecute guy, omgomg! The 3 of us like so crazy over him that we gave chase to him after he fixed the bike, gave him my tissue, hahaha! So blessed please. He's real cute. After giving chase head back to weian's side. Sat down at some don't know where then decided to return bike, on our way back saw that guy again! Ahhh, but he's sitting down with his friend, beside a girl somemore, but i doubt it's her girlfriend, so.. HAHAHA. Real funny, i think his friend suspect us cause he sees us where ever they are. Anyway, cute! ^^ Headed to suntec, wth with this kind of outfit, just feel like covering my face in disguise. Hope no one there remembers my face, lol. Then clar's mom came to fetch us treated us to noodles, nice & thanks (: She sent all of us home after that. The guys were crapping with auntie all the way in the car, real funny. & uncle tan ah! Better think bout those things i said, made sense ok! Don't be that silly lor. Alright, after so many's persuade, i've decided to try maple. But, so bad, weian gave me the link but.. "Internet explorer cannot display the webpage" Lol. Whatever, im exhausted, bye! :D

♥ Kiss me hard someday.

Current song?
Ni shi ai wo de.
Current mood?
Quite fine.
Current colour?
Purple & white.
Current shape?
Stars.
Current name on mind?
Leroy ._.
Current channel?
20, MTV insomnia, Teenage love affair.
Current dream?
Dreaming to have more dreams.
Current play?
Trying to actually dl maple as uncle tan ordered.
Current drink?
Srawberry milk, milk's my favourite (:
Current food?
Famous amas cookies.
Current picture?
His pict.
Current mindset?
I don't care what they say, im in love with you - Bleeding love & Mariah Carey's so damn hot!
Current move you ask for?
Nose touching nose, keeping promises. Lip touching lip saying i love you. -.-
Current style?
Japanese! I think it's weird too.
Current dance thought?
Hot pole dance!

The 15 Currents' Survey, try it too! Do this when you're real bored.
& i feel so shiok after being sarcastic to some slut in friendster whom scolded uncle tan's mom. Well, im not that good at being real sarcastic but im sure i can win her in this point, no point getting angry over this slut (:

2008-06-13T00:33:00.005+08:00

Thursday
Was out whole day with all my mighty cousins! Shirley, Stephanie, Hong & sister. Mommy was good enough to give me & sister money as she know we're going out with them! Met them at ps then to lunch, bought nose stud, changed today, not even one week, so painful when i pulled it out -.- Caught a movie, The Happening, a nice & frightening movie. Movie ended at 5, was wandering around cathay & ps deciding where to go next, & so sister wento meet her friends, hong went back to rm's arcade. Me, Shirley & Stephanie wento lil india then walked to bugis, was tempted by all the new arrivals! But i wonder why im sucha good girl today to not buy anything. Then 80 to compass reached it 8, had dinner there then 86 to rivervale mall, waited for hong play his arcade till 10, cause the arcade which i often go when im in primary skuu is closing down! 10 walked back to hong's house, 1130 was sent home by Shirley & Steph's dad. Well, haha sure there's gonna be another day out, but everything planned properly first! See the girls on tuesday :D Uncle tan actually asked for east coast tomorrow, im yearning for bicycle rides too, but plan failed, seems like no one wants to go ): They decided to go to Clar house for mj. I've gotta rush my art, stiu deciding whether should i really go & waste my time there..
SIGH. Projected my finals for art today, it's alrdy out. I'll be spending the week doing my colour schemes, 17th back to skuu to colour up my finals. It's like finally over soon.. BUT paper 2's coming up! Fuckg stress! >:

Portugal won last night! 3-2 :D & i declare that my sister is a PUBOR!!!!!!!!!!

3:17

Finished watching sky of love on the net again, never sick of it. It's alrdy don't know how many times i watched it end up stiu be crying like a kid. If only love will end like this.. It won't be that wonderful in this world. Gonna watch it again when im free.